God.. i really should commit more to keeping up with this blasted thing. XD
My grandma was in the hospital a few days ago.. the emergency room actually. i was stressed out to absolutely no end because i havent exactly been the nicest person to her, and if she had died (its possible, shes like, 80)i dont know what i woulda done, i would have lost my chance to make it up to her.
The good side to that was i got to have Kelli over for the night while she was gone.. i felt kind of like i was taking advantage of the situation, but its her own damn fault if she didnt like kelli, and wasnt willing to say anything to me about why or even have any reasons that make sense..... anyways. ^_^ it was nice to see her again, after so long.. She's getting better at ddr, makes me feel slow cause' she's already on standard and shes only done it three times..
Ugh, now adays it seems like more and more things are stressing me out for no reason at all. im hostile, agitated, irrational with my friends and family.. its pretty gradual and ive known for awhile, but its seriously bugging me, its pushing my friends away. whatever all this is about, i wish it would just.. go away..
it may just be stress over helping jason move here, but thats no excuse.. there really isnt any excuse for how ive been acting.
i owe it to jason to get better at stuff.. he really does deserve it for being sucha sweetie. =D
drawing.. stump.. cant... uggghhhh...
well, thats all for now. oh.. my trip? ill have to save it for the next entry, im feeling quite lazy. o.o
The good side to that was i got to have Kelli over for the night while she was gone.. i felt kind of like i was taking advantage of the situation, but its her own damn fault if she didnt like kelli, and wasnt willing to say anything to me about why or even have any reasons that make sense..... anyways. ^_^ it was nice to see her again, after so long.. She's getting better at ddr, makes me feel slow cause' she's already on standard and shes only done it three times..
Ugh, now adays it seems like more and more things are stressing me out for no reason at all. im hostile, agitated, irrational with my friends and family.. its pretty gradual and ive known for awhile, but its seriously bugging me, its pushing my friends away. whatever all this is about, i wish it would just.. go away..
it may just be stress over helping jason move here, but thats no excuse.. there really isnt any excuse for how ive been acting.
i owe it to jason to get better at stuff.. he really does deserve it for being sucha sweetie. =D
drawing.. stump.. cant... uggghhhh...
well, thats all for now. oh.. my trip? ill have to save it for the next entry, im feeling quite lazy. o.o