So yeah
So yeah...Live Journal was down for a day and I got out of the habit. So sue me. I really miss my honey...nothing new about that. I'm on my last week of work and I'm really psyched about that. Not that I don't love the little buggers but it's not paying me enough and I'm tired all the time and that is no way to spend my time in Europe. Yeah...So I'm patiently waiting for the return of my honey. Only a week and a half left. Doesn't seem that bad. This week will go fast because of work and the amount of studying that I have to do. I'm starting to realize how far behind I really am because of this whole work situation. It's really best that I'm leaving. I am however taking the day off the day after Charstie gets back and we're going to lock the doors and talk the whole weekend and she going to sleep alot because she needs to. I'm not sure where to take this next. Imre made a wonderful dish tonight for dinner though I can't remember the name of it. Through Live Journal I feel like I'm starting to get to know my friends in Cali better. At least they get to see this side of me which sometimes I only express well through written words. One of the things that this time away from my sweetie has afforded both of us is the time to re-evaluate our importances. That's a really hard thing to do when you're involved in a relationship and is just as important. Relationship lesson number one...If it's important to your loved one it doesn't have to be important to you...but what is important is that you recognize why it's important to your loved one and you respect that and support it as much as possible while not sacrificing what's important to you. I know that's a really hard lesson but it comes with realizing that your soulmate and you aren't going to agree on everything and shouldn't agree on everything...It's what allows the relationship to grow and mature...the learning of each other and those hidden passions that you might not discover until 30 years into a relationship. Disagreement is not fighting if learning is the end result. Doctor Tim here going on a rant but I can't tell you how important it is for Charstie and I to realize that though we're different we lock together like the pieces of a puzzle filling the void that couldn't be filled by another. A snug fit that we're going to cement together come August 6th. We're really only two pieces of a puzzle that includes all our friends and family each filling their spots. But from our perspective we're the center piece needed to complete the picture. I guess that's probably enough emotional outpouring for one session of LJ... Back to me I guess...I've learned in these few weeks apart that I need to open myself up to living life. I've become aware that I'm acting much older than I really should be. I guess that it's a natural reaction from spending too much time in school with people at different places in their lives. One reaction would be to act younger than I am and the other would be to act older. I'm going to try real hard to act my age...and I should be more carefree than I am while maintaining a good sense of perspective. Hope this hasn't been too philosophical and I know that the last statement seems contrary to earlier ones but I'm said that I'm trying...not that I'm there yet. Peace out and remember "Don't Forget to Smile" because that will force people to look you in the eyes and "The eyes are the windows to the soul"...."Now you're ready to fly up and begin to know the meaning of Love"--Richard Bach--Jonathan Livingston Seagull