A Puppet
Being everyone's puppet, takes a toll on you sometimes, I am being pulled in all different directions.... Its not a state of depression, just realizing the circumstances at work are never going to get better, just get worse. I think what pushed me over the limit was the fact that she had to say Alyson, u know you are on probation.... I was sick for gods sake... I come first, if im sick, I take care of me... im not worried about probation. I calculated how many times I was out this year including this week, 6 days for the whole fucking year. Give me a break... It bothers me to no avail...................I do my job, I take care of what needs to be taking care...............I have a life, you know, my life does not revolve around this company............ I am not a slacker, I want to succeed, but im sorry to say this, but this company has tainted my views on health insurance companies... I had the training, I learned, I grew, but they have to fix the cause of that department's problems..............I need some relief... Everyone blames the lowest person on the pole....... But it seems that if you don't be a part of the incrowd than you are fucked, literally.................im not challenged.........