Feb 01, 2009 16:29
People who never been sexual abused, find it easy to say "get over it" It is not that simple. When someone is scarred from a traumatic event, it leaves imprints in that persons mind that may effect them for years to come. For me, it has been a battle, only because after my confrontation of releasing the truth to my mom, who I might add, never protected me, rather used it against me in fights. After years of torment and doing what everyone expected me to do, push it under the rug, I finally realized that my parents are not who I thought they were and I moved out because I was not happy being under their roof any longer. I felt no protection from anyone, just my friends. And when I had post things on myspace for the community to read, without thinking of the consequences of who I had on my page, I felt free because when my father's friends found out, I was not keeping a secret any longer, I was setting myself free from this burden of protecting him all these years when he did not protect me. She did not protect me when he was putting his hands all over her daughter's body, when he used his power to use me for his own pleasure, nor did she protect me afterwards when she found out, she just let me stay there to deal with it by myself. I turned to my friends who have been there through the rough times and the good times and I found clarity in everything I do and peace.