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i never realized how much i love basketball.
i have a passion for it.
someone who has control of me ... not letting me do it .... has made me realize that i need to play.
it sounds really dumb and everything but i really do need it in my life.
i was at the basketball game tonight and this is when it really all hit me. im not allowed to play. i was watching them play, and i was thinking like i was on the team, playing in that game. it sounds stupid. and i feel stupid writing about it for all you lovely kids to read but i dont care. this is a journal entry about basketball .. yes .. yes it is.
i knew what they were going to do .. i knew when they were going to do it .. i knew how they were going to do it. thats something only a real player thinks about when they are watching games. what to do next.
everything that has happened because of this bullshit suspension ... makes me want to play more.
im going to be a better player because of this so i guess i could be thanking my asshole friends and bitch principal.
im going to play summer basketball .. i might play international because yes i was invited for the 3rd year in a row... im going to work my ass off until i get to play again.
i was stupid when i was on the team... i knew i was going to stay on it but i never tried as hard as i could and i always acted like i was fucking god.
i have learned so much from all of this.
touching a basketball hurts.
i always talk to ray about all the stupid things we did in basketball ... the girls on my basketball team were some of the best friends i ever had.
im going to get better.
and im going to play.
im not fucking up again ...
i have a passion for it.
someone who has control of me ... not letting me do it .... has made me realize that i need to play.
it sounds really dumb and everything but i really do need it in my life.
i was at the basketball game tonight and this is when it really all hit me. im not allowed to play. i was watching them play, and i was thinking like i was on the team, playing in that game. it sounds stupid. and i feel stupid writing about it for all you lovely kids to read but i dont care. this is a journal entry about basketball .. yes .. yes it is.
i knew what they were going to do .. i knew when they were going to do it .. i knew how they were going to do it. thats something only a real player thinks about when they are watching games. what to do next.
everything that has happened because of this bullshit suspension ... makes me want to play more.
im going to be a better player because of this so i guess i could be thanking my asshole friends and bitch principal.
im going to play summer basketball .. i might play international because yes i was invited for the 3rd year in a row... im going to work my ass off until i get to play again.
i was stupid when i was on the team... i knew i was going to stay on it but i never tried as hard as i could and i always acted like i was fucking god.
i have learned so much from all of this.
touching a basketball hurts.
i always talk to ray about all the stupid things we did in basketball ... the girls on my basketball team were some of the best friends i ever had.
im going to get better.
and im going to play.
im not fucking up again ...