Ups and downs
It's funny what friends can do to you. Yesterday, a dear one stunned me into a bemused silence. Today, a close one left me sighing in disappointed resignation. Both of them have made me think about the ways various things in my life stand.
I'm tired. I don't like meeting new people and have never had an easy time making new friends. I approach people with great trepidation, but once I have accepted a person, I hang on with equal determination. To learn something new about a friend as she learns something new about herself can be a pleasant shock. To watch another friend pulling away from a group, causing me to realize that I would feel alone there without him... just makes me want to be alone in actuality.
In not unrelated news, I've created a new character on a different server of World of Warcraft. I don't plan on telling anyone I already know where I've gone; I plan on keeping that character for times when I want to either be alone or for when I want to press myself to be with new people, so hanging out with people I already know would defeat the purpose of making the character. I'm not abandoning my established avatars. I may not spend quite so much time there, though.
I'm tired. I don't like meeting new people and have never had an easy time making new friends. I approach people with great trepidation, but once I have accepted a person, I hang on with equal determination. To learn something new about a friend as she learns something new about herself can be a pleasant shock. To watch another friend pulling away from a group, causing me to realize that I would feel alone there without him... just makes me want to be alone in actuality.
In not unrelated news, I've created a new character on a different server of World of Warcraft. I don't plan on telling anyone I already know where I've gone; I plan on keeping that character for times when I want to either be alone or for when I want to press myself to be with new people, so hanging out with people I already know would defeat the purpose of making the character. I'm not abandoning my established avatars. I may not spend quite so much time there, though.