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Aug 18, 2010 01:05


Today was merely the start of the third week of school and I can already feel the weight of the work. It’s not that we’ve a lot to do right now, but the amount of time needed to generate ideas is driving me up the wall!

When ideas don’t come and all I do is stare blankly at my empty layout pad, I get super worried that this is it - this is where it all ends because my lack of creativity is going to cause my doom. -_-

The lack of time to do things like hanging out with friends bothers me, but at the end of the day, I wonder how many people have time to hang out anyway. The fragility of relationships is astounding, and some days I don’t even know what’s worth it anymore.

Pent-up frustration and sadness is dangerous, and horribly detrimental to too many things, but sometimes, things really are better left unsaid.

What makes christians so damn judgmental anyway? You’re not on any moral higher-ground just because of the values that are taught to you, you know. I honestly think that christians can be the most judgmental people of the lot, especially towards other christians. There’s a fine line between watching out for someone, and being hypocritical in the very things you say and do. (And before you jump to assumptions, I’m christian too)

I really shouldn’t keep things to myself for months and months on end.

This seems to make it easier when I think of packing up and leaving this place, hahahahaha.
What am I supposed to do?
I’m sick of living up to other people’s expectations of me.



Originally published at the random adventures of jojo. Please leave any comments there.

contemplation, crybaby, fuzzies

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