of scoopy doo adventures & then some…
It’s 4am. My eyes are dry because they’re tired, and it’s one of the strange feelings I like. Much like feeling thirsty.
I’m tired as hell after the shift at Raffles City B&J just now. It’s a Monday night.. How crowded could it have gotten?
It wasn’t so much the crowd. It was busier than the average Monday, but no where close to the insane Saturday nights I am accustomed to at Dempsey. Perhaps it’s because I haven’t put in a shift at a store in months and months and my body isn’t used to it. Perhaps it’s because I slept at 5am last night, haha!
Or that Hafi and I took 2 extra hours after the store was set to close to clean up thoroughly. I’ve missed Hafi. She used to work at the Cathay branch. I miss a lot of the old scoopies. Perhaps it’s a familiarity, or perhaps I’ve known them for a longer period.. Maybe also because some of the older scoopies have gone beyond being part-timers at a store, and have become friends.
Being away from Ben & Jerry’s (the store, that is) for so long caused my tummy to be over-excited, so I re-acquainted my tummy and many flavours today. Haha!
Kelv came by twice to see me too (he has a part time job in the RC office tower heh) so that made the shift lots more fun. Uh and I realised that both times he came by, he accompanied me to get food. I NEED TO STOP EATING. It is expensive and I get fat. But I love eating. Welcome to my world of endless dilemmas.
Scooping’s fun, but something felt different today. Not because I was working in a store where I felt completely lost because I didn’t know where everything was kept. I think it’s internal, this one. Of having lost some of the spark and passion I used to have for the brand and the company.
The ice cream’s still awesome, so is the brand.. don’t get me wrong.
I mean, I dropped the PinkPolarBear a text that read, “I love love love love love love love ice cream!” when I got to the store! Heh.
So many people have asked me repeatedly, “Why did you leave the company?”
There are a handful of reasons why I left when I did (about a month plus ago) and I don’t even know how many I should be honest about here. I just know I am sick of answering it. Haha. The easy answer is that I’m looking to further my studies, and I want a break. It’s not that it’s untrue, those reasons. It’s just that it isn’t all there is to it.
Passion is vital in my life, and the last thing I want for my life is to go through the motion without feeling and without purpose. I suppose you could say the same for the relationships in my life.
In the midst of feeling completely lost, stressed and just plain tired out trying to figure out the next 4 years of my life, I’m thankful that I’ve got the people whom I’ve got.
You’re the ones who make this journey worth it, even when the rest of my life’s circumstance is a complete blur right now.
I don’t know where I’m going to next. As much as I seem completely capable of throwing everything out the window and just live in the moment, I can’t.
After cell last week, something Pam said stuck.
Are you driven by the perspectives of the world or by the principles of God?
Being driven and having passion, as I’ve countlessly mentioned, mean the world to me. But I guess I need to take a step back and truly ask myself what I am driven by.
I hate it when people are driven by money and material possessions, but how different am I when I am driven by the perspectives of the world? (i/e paper qualifications, etc)
Hello God, please speak to me. Please let me know if you want me to go or stay in Singapore. Please please please. Thank You.
I really should have gone off earlier to munch on chips just because I am greedy and continued reading Enid Blyton’s THE FARAWAY TREE collection. Awesome shit. Haahaha. I want to buy THE WISHING CHAIR collection. 3-in-1 book! Heh. I used to have TONS of Enid Blyton books but I had to get rid of them when we moved because there’s no Study Room in this house and everything I want to keep, I have to keep in my room.
Explains the mess.
Really do wish I’d kept more though, because I keep wanting to buy them back when I see them in bookstores.
SIGH, I really need more relaxing days out instead of rushing rushing rushing all the damn time.
I hate the pace in Singapore, arghhhhhhh.
PAUSE BUTTON PLEASE!!!!!
Oh and Ben & Jerry’s is turning 30 next month.
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