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Goooood morning.
Have you ever loved a band so much that it hurt? I went through this experience about 4 years ago when I was 18/19. I feel lucky that I could feel this way about band, or should I say, their music. From the first time I heard their album, this wonderful feeling flooded my heart and all I wanted to do was lie on my bed listening to it over and over again. I can't explain why, it's just something inexplicable.
The songs comforted on every emotional occasion--happy, sad, mad, hurt. However I was feeling, their music made me forget about everything else, leading me into a bubble that inevitably floated away to a safe place. I wouldn't even say that their music always makes me happy. It's just, something about their music feels like they understand whatever I'm going through. I guess the best word to give a description is "comforting."
Then, as I learned more about the band, I fell totally in love with the singer. He's not stereotypically "hot," but I fell for him because he's like... the male version of me. I guess you could say I liked him because of his personality, even though I only knew him through print and his lyrics. He grew more and more beautiful in my eyes as I found out more about him, realizing we shared so many of the same insecurites and issues. We were both shy, both jerks, both afraid. He understood. He wasn't a musician to me, he was a friend.
Now, a good four years later, I've sort of outgrown that phase, or whatever it was. I still love them to death and they'll always hold an undeniable place in my stingy heart, but I guess I've... _outgrown_ that kind of devotion. I still get that comforting feeling when I hear them play, but I guess that's a part of being 18--that you _need_ something to latch onto. When I was 18, I was going through a lot of issues, a freshman in college, not making a lot of friends, etc. Really, all you want when you're in that kind of situation is for someone to undersatnd, and that was them for me.
(What's funny is, as I write this, I know I'm leaving out vital information to this story. It's on purpose. All I'll dispell is, as much joy as this band gave me, they also gave me great pain.)
Not to sound all snobby, but I'm glad I'm not one of those hopelessly devoted fans, because if I was, I would still be that 18-year-old trying to find myself.
Have you ever loved a band so much that it hurt? I went through this experience about 4 years ago when I was 18/19. I feel lucky that I could feel this way about band, or should I say, their music. From the first time I heard their album, this wonderful feeling flooded my heart and all I wanted to do was lie on my bed listening to it over and over again. I can't explain why, it's just something inexplicable.
The songs comforted on every emotional occasion--happy, sad, mad, hurt. However I was feeling, their music made me forget about everything else, leading me into a bubble that inevitably floated away to a safe place. I wouldn't even say that their music always makes me happy. It's just, something about their music feels like they understand whatever I'm going through. I guess the best word to give a description is "comforting."
Then, as I learned more about the band, I fell totally in love with the singer. He's not stereotypically "hot," but I fell for him because he's like... the male version of me. I guess you could say I liked him because of his personality, even though I only knew him through print and his lyrics. He grew more and more beautiful in my eyes as I found out more about him, realizing we shared so many of the same insecurites and issues. We were both shy, both jerks, both afraid. He understood. He wasn't a musician to me, he was a friend.
Now, a good four years later, I've sort of outgrown that phase, or whatever it was. I still love them to death and they'll always hold an undeniable place in my stingy heart, but I guess I've... _outgrown_ that kind of devotion. I still get that comforting feeling when I hear them play, but I guess that's a part of being 18--that you _need_ something to latch onto. When I was 18, I was going through a lot of issues, a freshman in college, not making a lot of friends, etc. Really, all you want when you're in that kind of situation is for someone to undersatnd, and that was them for me.
(What's funny is, as I write this, I know I'm leaving out vital information to this story. It's on purpose. All I'll dispell is, as much joy as this band gave me, they also gave me great pain.)
Not to sound all snobby, but I'm glad I'm not one of those hopelessly devoted fans, because if I was, I would still be that 18-year-old trying to find myself.