wow, a matter of trust.
So, I basically just got home from an amazing dinner with my wifey (Nicole, I've known her since fourth grade) and Timothy, I've known them both since elementary school basically, and even though me and Nicole are always texting back and forth, I hadn't seen Tim in months and months, he's engaged to his boyfriend Anthony and they are planning a small wedding in my hometown of Point Pleasant Beach, New Jersey. Myself and Nicole are bridesmaids, and Tony's nephew and niece will be the ring bearer and flower girl. I'm completely excited about this because I haven't been to a wedding in years, and the colors they are choosing are black suits (obviously) with pale yellow ties/bowties? not sure what will look better, and our dresses will be a gold-ish color. Afterwards there will be a reception in Atlantic City, we rented out 2 suites at the Borgata and it's just going to be alot of fun to see people I haven't talked to/seen since college or high school. So yes, I'am pumped to go accessory and makeup shopping! :D
My sister Suzanne my junior by 7 years had her wisdom teeth taken out today - all 4 at 9:30 this morning and I was in the room with her when they put the IV in (we go to sedation dentistry and they knock you out, almost exactly like anisthesia(sp?!). Like in a regular surgery, then went to the waiting room with my mom and dad, we waited about 30 minutes and got home at 10:30, she had all the gauze in her mouth, and when I took it out the first time it was almost like.. black blood. So I freaked and called Dr. Banks (amazing lady, BTW) and she said it was very normal and just to not let her drink any of her fluids with a straw, because that would cause a dry socket in 1 or more of the empty spaces in her mouth. And in my experience when I had mine out, that was most painful thing I've experienced, well that and my shoulder dislocating fooling around in the pool. :( I'm accident prone. Anyway, I got her magazines and ice cream and some DVD's to keep her busy and entertained cause i'm a great sister!! She's doing real well, had a problem with the Percoset, they gave her horrible headaches so they gave her Tylenol 3 instead.
She's asleep now, and I'm just waiting to hear her call my name, my nerves are a bit on edge because of crying jag i've been on tonight for some reason, the television being on, and the AC, I swear I think I'm hearing things sometimes, like the Sixth Sense sort of? aha. They said her recovery period will be 3/4 days and I'm pretty sure she'll just be sleeping all this week and relaxing.
We got our yearly condo in Wildwood NJ, and I'm very excited, it's a beautiful beach town. A little bit more classy than Seaside, the sand and the water are clean....not so much down by our beaches. And they have three piers(boardwalks, shopping, eatery's, and a huge fitness type center) I'm taking Nicole/Tim Anthony, Ash, and Sandy this year, because I know they all need a break from work and to just relax for a few days, we'll be there Aug 6-23, and my birthday lands right on August 10th, sooo..It'll be BANGING!
Uhmmm....
What else?
People who make false promises are cowards and don't deserve to have me in their lives anymore and I'm just sick over crying and being weepy these past 2 weeks (I'm not sure why, it might be my new medicine, I have to check in with my doctor on that).
Isn't it sad, that I have like maybe maybe not even 6 people I can trust not to fuck me over? Lie to me..Talk about me behind my back.. Send threatening emails..Spread lies..and hurt my true friends.... Even going so far as trying to hurt an animal of mine (it's a long story i'll post when i'm not so emotional =/)
Do these people get satisfaction out of it or what? Pulling people down..causing them low self esteem because I have a bit more weight on myself than their ever so perfect bodies. That I'm a homebody, more of a loner in years before but now I'm really getting out and living my life.
I'm going to be 25, and I can't believe it feels like my life is really just starting for me, all the medical, emotional, phychological family problems, stress over the years, I became agoraphobic. I couldn't leave the house, that's not how i want to live my life from now on.
:D I'll be out and about, enjoying life, knowing i'm stronger what with all i went through.
I'll show everyone just what Kate will do. And they'll all bite their tongues.
BTW; Barack Obama FTW in 08!! I think he's going to do it people. I just adore him, he sort of reminds me of my dad in a way and he has almost a caretaker/fatherly/compassionate/maker of changes in this politics game. <33
I like Hillary also though, she's just a bit shrill? that may not be the best word, but ..I get a cold almost unfriendly vibe from her? Maybe it's just me.
Goodnight and Godbless.