i dont know what i know but i do know this
chelsea i want to be friends
people have confessed their love for me
when is a door not a door when it's a jar and that's the truth
roland is
truth
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i decided i don't want a job when i'm done with college i decided a friend of mine is right college is overrated it will get you a job but not much else i don't need a higher education to learn the world i don't want to know math or science i know that worms can eat my insides and i need h2o and o and that's all i need to know i don't want to bother myself with the stupid complexities to which some people dedicate their lives (there is a huge spider crawling up my curtain right now i'll look away and pretend i didn't see it) it's too boring for me jobs are too boring to me is that really why we were born to learn how to work work to make money give away the money we learned how to work to make just so that we can survive survival shouldn't cost anything but it does and it's not like you're even paying your dues to some omnipotent omniscient omnipresent being you're giving away everything they said you're born to make to people running some government and they're running it because people gave money to their fathers and their fathers and their fathers and their fathers before them and so on and so forth so these chosen ones get to live without worry but the common person has to go day to day hoping to bring home a paycheck big enough to pay the rent buy the bread feed the dog feed the car pay the bills pay the tolls save for kids save for college save for retirement save to bury themselves in a personally selected plot of land or perhaps a nice mausoleum the drawers are even big enough for four or two or you so i decided i don't want a job i will write if it makes me money then it does if it doesn't then i don't care i don't want to stay here much longer i will finish college against my will i will get a phd just so that i can sign my name dr. brittany insertlastnameoffuturehusbandherealthoughimayormaynotdecidetokeepmyown, phd just like dr. barbara e. ochterski, phd does on awards and official school letters except i will not sign anything official maybe the will that i won't be making since i won't have anything to sign over maybe i'll sign a police report or a book i publish sign it for whoever wants it not that anyone will maybe i will sign my name on a wall somewhere but knowing me it will be more like a cryptic message then i will walk away laughing and no one even knows what it means no job for me i don't want to live in this world why should i work in it why should i pay my life away to a corporation money doesn't buy what i am looking for and i wonder if i will ever find what i'm looking for i can't live in this world because what i need doesn't live here so i have to write it into a book or a poem or a sentence or fragment a clause run-on gerund write myself into the characters and live in the only place that will make me happy .................
yes no job instead i will explore the world and live among the natives and contract many exotic diseases and probably die alone (bc my husband will have joined me but men are weak so he would have died before i did or maybe he divorced me because i am not financially stable or maybe i never have a husband in the first place it's an optical illusion the pleats) in the middle of a jungle or fjord somewhere looking up at the sky my last words people always promise to do things in the future but they forget them or the ideas grow tired and old just like them i hope i remember i say there are other worlds than this choo-choo and that's the truth
people have confessed their love for me
when is a door not a door when it's a jar and that's the truth
roland is
truth
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i decided i don't want a job when i'm done with college i decided a friend of mine is right college is overrated it will get you a job but not much else i don't need a higher education to learn the world i don't want to know math or science i know that worms can eat my insides and i need h2o and o and that's all i need to know i don't want to bother myself with the stupid complexities to which some people dedicate their lives (there is a huge spider crawling up my curtain right now i'll look away and pretend i didn't see it) it's too boring for me jobs are too boring to me is that really why we were born to learn how to work work to make money give away the money we learned how to work to make just so that we can survive survival shouldn't cost anything but it does and it's not like you're even paying your dues to some omnipotent omniscient omnipresent being you're giving away everything they said you're born to make to people running some government and they're running it because people gave money to their fathers and their fathers and their fathers and their fathers before them and so on and so forth so these chosen ones get to live without worry but the common person has to go day to day hoping to bring home a paycheck big enough to pay the rent buy the bread feed the dog feed the car pay the bills pay the tolls save for kids save for college save for retirement save to bury themselves in a personally selected plot of land or perhaps a nice mausoleum the drawers are even big enough for four or two or you so i decided i don't want a job i will write if it makes me money then it does if it doesn't then i don't care i don't want to stay here much longer i will finish college against my will i will get a phd just so that i can sign my name dr. brittany insertlastnameoffuturehusbandherealthoughimayormaynotdecidetokeepmyown, phd just like dr. barbara e. ochterski, phd does on awards and official school letters except i will not sign anything official maybe the will that i won't be making since i won't have anything to sign over maybe i'll sign a police report or a book i publish sign it for whoever wants it not that anyone will maybe i will sign my name on a wall somewhere but knowing me it will be more like a cryptic message then i will walk away laughing and no one even knows what it means no job for me i don't want to live in this world why should i work in it why should i pay my life away to a corporation money doesn't buy what i am looking for and i wonder if i will ever find what i'm looking for i can't live in this world because what i need doesn't live here so i have to write it into a book or a poem or a sentence or fragment a clause run-on gerund write myself into the characters and live in the only place that will make me happy .................
yes no job instead i will explore the world and live among the natives and contract many exotic diseases and probably die alone (bc my husband will have joined me but men are weak so he would have died before i did or maybe he divorced me because i am not financially stable or maybe i never have a husband in the first place it's an optical illusion the pleats) in the middle of a jungle or fjord somewhere looking up at the sky my last words people always promise to do things in the future but they forget them or the ideas grow tired and old just like them i hope i remember i say there are other worlds than this choo-choo and that's the truth