For your birthday, I grew you a cat.
Last evening, my grandmother passed away.
I'm not exactly sure how I feel. I'm sad, because I never knew her very well, and yet she was such an integral part of my life: she always made me feel remembered and loved on every single holiday with cards. She paid for my college education, and encouraged me to spend the money she left me on my dance education as well. She was a feisty, indepedant woman who always did as she wanted, with a killer sense of fashion, and a bevy of adoring childern and friends.
And while I'm sad, I'm also relieved, because she was very ill, and in quite a bit of pain. I don't think she expected to live as long as she did, and she was unhappy that she had to rely on her children to take care of her for the last few months of her life.
I've always been told how much I am like her, and yet I never got to know her. I was excited to visit Hawaii to see her.
She sent me a birthday card, and I hadn't mailed the thank you note back yet, and now I don't know if I should.
I'm worried about my mother. She's leaving soon for the funeral, but I don't know when. I feel like I should go home and see her, but I know that would just upset her more.
It upsets me that I had to deal with assholes, both partners and customers at work tonight, when I should have been home with my family.
Life is kind of bitchy, sometimes.
Kia.
I'm not exactly sure how I feel. I'm sad, because I never knew her very well, and yet she was such an integral part of my life: she always made me feel remembered and loved on every single holiday with cards. She paid for my college education, and encouraged me to spend the money she left me on my dance education as well. She was a feisty, indepedant woman who always did as she wanted, with a killer sense of fashion, and a bevy of adoring childern and friends.
And while I'm sad, I'm also relieved, because she was very ill, and in quite a bit of pain. I don't think she expected to live as long as she did, and she was unhappy that she had to rely on her children to take care of her for the last few months of her life.
I've always been told how much I am like her, and yet I never got to know her. I was excited to visit Hawaii to see her.
She sent me a birthday card, and I hadn't mailed the thank you note back yet, and now I don't know if I should.
I'm worried about my mother. She's leaving soon for the funeral, but I don't know when. I feel like I should go home and see her, but I know that would just upset her more.
It upsets me that I had to deal with assholes, both partners and customers at work tonight, when I should have been home with my family.
Life is kind of bitchy, sometimes.
Kia.