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i have mixed feelings. i'm glad that i'm done with highschool bullshit, but then again, i know i have tons of trouble getting new friends, so the fact that i'm going to leave what i know behind, for something unknown, but supposidly great, seems silly. i'm so afraid that i'll spend my entire summer like i usually do. that is, sitting at home and being on the computer, with the exception of the new thing, my job, i won't leave my house with anyone but family. i'm hoping that i will soon get a car, in which i can roam the city, maybe get invited to more things because of my lack of needing a ride. all i know, is that i don't want to spend my summer alone, because i'm afraid that's how i'll spend college. i just opened up an checking account today, i thought that would make me feel more free, but it only made me afraid. i don't know if i want to be free.