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life....is life. it's goin good....i guess....i'm most likely going to a scholarship day at UNI on the first of decembre...hildreth is totally on board for writing one of my letters of recomendation...this year is going so fast, it's really scary, i don't want to leave high school. i had such a hard time moving from elementry school, it took me an entire year to get to the point that i could make friends, i'm afraid that that will happen at UNI...i don't want that, it scares me, what if i have an issue, i'll be all alone, probably hiding somewhere cold and alone, and i won't have anyone to run to. it's dreadful. but, maybe i'm just making it seem more of a big deal than it is...i have a fear of being alone, yeah, there will be people, but i'll be at least two hours away from the people that i've known for 17 years, i've never lived anywhere other than des moines, and i'm just totally afraid...and yet...i'm excited...maybe it's just what i need to grow just that extra bit. we'll see how it turns out.