octoberrrr boooo
well, to be honest, last week was the worst week of my entire almost 20 years of life. but i made it through. and i'm trying to be optimistic. i'll spare the details but basically, a lot fell apart all at once, i've realized a lot about life, and i find my self changing as a person. it's all a lot to handle and what's scary is in the grand scheme of things, it's NOT a lot to handle at all. so, jeesh. i think things are starting to look up but my greatest flaw is impatience and my greatest weakness is my neurotic tendencies so, i'm just constantly worried about just how long it'll take for things to get back to normal and for my head to clear and for me to figure it all out. i just want everything to be okay. and i want to be the person i used to be, i guess, with a more mature outlook...because if anything, i hope this will at least be a signifigant learning experience that i grow from.
oh, life.
why didn't anyone ever say that it wasn't easy!?!?
okay, maybe they did. i just have totally fucking ignored that because that's all it's ever been for me! hah.
jeeeeeeeeeeesh.
i miss being a kid =\
anyhoo, on the bright side my birthday is in ten days and Halloween was absolutely wonderful. Julien and I had a wonderful breakfast at Jack 'n' Jills in Beverly Hills and than finished up the afternoon at 'Mr. Bones Pumpkin Patch.' Supposedly it's supposed to be the greatest in Los Angeles but HAHAHAAHAH, it was pish posh. If i'm here next year, we have both definitely decided that we are going home for Halloween. Because it's just not the same on the West Coast. Poor Californians have probably never even seen a real pumpkin patch or gone through real corn stalk mazes. aw. Oh, and being here next year is one of those huge decisions I need to make soon, or life might just make it for me because well, i can't control such things as... I HAVE NO MONEY. or can i ? well this is all things i'll have to figure out. BUT that's what i'm sayin...lots to figure out, no time to do it. not a good remedy. but what am i gonna do? okay back to my favourite holiday ever... We trick-or-treated in Pasadena this year. All the shops gave away candy from 4-7 and it was totally packed! I love Pasadena. It's where I work and play...now I just need to get an apartment there! slash house... but yeah, EVERYONE loved my costume. i got so many comments. I was Raggety Anne this year. =] It was super cute, I must say. So, since both Julien and I hate our living situations, we decided to just book a hotel room! hahah, we didn't want anything spoiling our day. We were going to just check in, get ready, and go out. butttttttttt, yeah, that didn't happen. i mean duh, what did we expect? hahah. so we basically stayed in bed from 7pm until the next afternoon, watching hocus pocus, eating domino's, and munchin on candy. and each other. ahahah. twas a perfect end to a maaaarvelous day. ps, bette midler is so fucking amazing. and than! today we found a little boulangerie ride down the road from my house. it was like the light at the end of the tunnel. just what we've needed! It is SO wonderful. It's completely french, and everyone around us was french, and the cawfee was on par with france's, and so was the bread even, and it was just delicious and a marvelous atmosphere and we're basically going back all the time now. :) eeeeeeeeeeeeeeee. so now i'm just getting shit done, or trying anddd attempting to get shit straightened out. :\ guhhh. life.
oh, life.
why didn't anyone ever say that it wasn't easy!?!?
okay, maybe they did. i just have totally fucking ignored that because that's all it's ever been for me! hah.
jeeeeeeeeeeesh.
i miss being a kid =\
anyhoo, on the bright side my birthday is in ten days and Halloween was absolutely wonderful. Julien and I had a wonderful breakfast at Jack 'n' Jills in Beverly Hills and than finished up the afternoon at 'Mr. Bones Pumpkin Patch.' Supposedly it's supposed to be the greatest in Los Angeles but HAHAHAAHAH, it was pish posh. If i'm here next year, we have both definitely decided that we are going home for Halloween. Because it's just not the same on the West Coast. Poor Californians have probably never even seen a real pumpkin patch or gone through real corn stalk mazes. aw. Oh, and being here next year is one of those huge decisions I need to make soon, or life might just make it for me because well, i can't control such things as... I HAVE NO MONEY. or can i ? well this is all things i'll have to figure out. BUT that's what i'm sayin...lots to figure out, no time to do it. not a good remedy. but what am i gonna do? okay back to my favourite holiday ever... We trick-or-treated in Pasadena this year. All the shops gave away candy from 4-7 and it was totally packed! I love Pasadena. It's where I work and play...now I just need to get an apartment there! slash house... but yeah, EVERYONE loved my costume. i got so many comments. I was Raggety Anne this year. =] It was super cute, I must say. So, since both Julien and I hate our living situations, we decided to just book a hotel room! hahah, we didn't want anything spoiling our day. We were going to just check in, get ready, and go out. butttttttttt, yeah, that didn't happen. i mean duh, what did we expect? hahah. so we basically stayed in bed from 7pm until the next afternoon, watching hocus pocus, eating domino's, and munchin on candy. and each other. ahahah. twas a perfect end to a maaaarvelous day. ps, bette midler is so fucking amazing. and than! today we found a little boulangerie ride down the road from my house. it was like the light at the end of the tunnel. just what we've needed! It is SO wonderful. It's completely french, and everyone around us was french, and the cawfee was on par with france's, and so was the bread even, and it was just delicious and a marvelous atmosphere and we're basically going back all the time now. :) eeeeeeeeeeeeeeee. so now i'm just getting shit done, or trying anddd attempting to get shit straightened out. :\ guhhh. life.