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i hate my life right now. ever since that last fucking post ive been depressed as hell. my grades are horrible. i hate half of my classes. the ones i like im doing terrible in. im failing calc with like a 13% or so. ill have to take that again... i have a C- in chem even though i aced the only test and got Bs on the quizzes? i dont even know WHY i have to take chem. it has next to nothing to do with my major and it is a literal copy of the course i took at hop, so i already know all of the material and the labs. i could understand if we talked about batteries, or hydrogen fuel cells or some shit, but were doing OMG ACIDS CORRODE STUFF LLOLOLOLOLOL. my thermodynamics class, my god, is SO useless. who. the. fuck. cares. about. steam. no one. it has nothing to do with anything that any of us will ever come close to doing IRL. UGH I HATE IT.
im in such a downward spiral right now and it feels eerily like sophomore year. i just wish that colleges and future employers would realize that none of this shit matters in the end. so what if i fail calc? it has no real use in life. i will never have to find a derivative once i graduate. ive talked to engineers. if they ever come across hard math they either outsource it or plug it into a machine that does it for them, and a few years from now it will only be easier. but no, they will see that one mark of failure and immediately my resume will be thrown into the fire and some asshole that sucked the CEO's dick will be rolling in piles of money. fuck everything im going to bed.
im in such a downward spiral right now and it feels eerily like sophomore year. i just wish that colleges and future employers would realize that none of this shit matters in the end. so what if i fail calc? it has no real use in life. i will never have to find a derivative once i graduate. ive talked to engineers. if they ever come across hard math they either outsource it or plug it into a machine that does it for them, and a few years from now it will only be easier. but no, they will see that one mark of failure and immediately my resume will be thrown into the fire and some asshole that sucked the CEO's dick will be rolling in piles of money. fuck everything im going to bed.