The Difference A Year Makes...or 2
Today I was reminded of just how far I have come since 2010. I've had a lot of major setbacks that year, but like the phoenix I am, I was able to rise above it all. Too bad it took me 33 years to realize the only reason I rise above anything is because of God.
So when my life went from bad to worse in 2008, I really lost that faith and moved into uncharted waters. But through God's Grace and Miracles, I stand firm today in my convictions.
It is amazing to literally look back over these few years and see the course I followed. See when I was in the pits of despair and when the Lord lifted me out. I cannot ever imagine how I was before I am today. How could I not had this faith? I somehow lost it between being 18 and 34. I suspect it was there, I just didn't want to acknowledge it.
Working at Calvert with the kids, it has moved my faith past everything. My faith feels invincible. I think that's amazing coming from someone who suffers depression, who lost their father to suicide, who always was abused by others, who had cancer and lost the ability to have kids, someone who was bullied...etc. I see so much more clearly now that to go through those things, it brought me to where I am now. It brought me to a place of peace and blessing and the knowledge that no matter how bad life may look, it's not. God loves me.
And I am ever so thankful for the people along the way who helped show me the way, good or bad. I just pray God has mercy on their souls.
I can't believe I have finally found my place in the world, in God's world and happiness. Knowing God's Grace brings me a happiness that is unique and overwhelming. It's like being wrapped in a warm blanket that smells like your favourite scent. Surrounds you and just keeps you warm and strong.
If anyone still reads my posts, I hope you find this happiness that I have found.
So when my life went from bad to worse in 2008, I really lost that faith and moved into uncharted waters. But through God's Grace and Miracles, I stand firm today in my convictions.
It is amazing to literally look back over these few years and see the course I followed. See when I was in the pits of despair and when the Lord lifted me out. I cannot ever imagine how I was before I am today. How could I not had this faith? I somehow lost it between being 18 and 34. I suspect it was there, I just didn't want to acknowledge it.
Working at Calvert with the kids, it has moved my faith past everything. My faith feels invincible. I think that's amazing coming from someone who suffers depression, who lost their father to suicide, who always was abused by others, who had cancer and lost the ability to have kids, someone who was bullied...etc. I see so much more clearly now that to go through those things, it brought me to where I am now. It brought me to a place of peace and blessing and the knowledge that no matter how bad life may look, it's not. God loves me.
And I am ever so thankful for the people along the way who helped show me the way, good or bad. I just pray God has mercy on their souls.
I can't believe I have finally found my place in the world, in God's world and happiness. Knowing God's Grace brings me a happiness that is unique and overwhelming. It's like being wrapped in a warm blanket that smells like your favourite scent. Surrounds you and just keeps you warm and strong.
If anyone still reads my posts, I hope you find this happiness that I have found.