Jul 29, 2010 02:02
The weather has been kind enough to let me sleep for hours and hours. Too many hours, too many minutes. This lasted for a few days. I don't know why I sleep so much; perhaps it's the burnout from last week, doing graphic projects and running the store.
Loneliness encumbers. The rain and the dark clouds obscuring the sun. Light is non-existent except for the artificial glaze of fluorescence yellowed from years of dust and humidity. It shines upon me like a dirtied, aged truth. Perhaps I have stayed in my room too much the past three days. I need to get out of my flat. This liberation takes place later today, then I will be amongst crowds of people on the streets crashing into each other like subatomic particles. This country is a giant particle accelerator. It makes us crash and crash and crash into each other until something, a reaction of sorts, happens; a violent or a passive retreat into a self-contained silence. It makes me sick either way. Face the walls or face being collided upon. I'd rather face the waves and wind and let nature wash away all the sins of mankind.