the right decision... the wrong reason
as everyone knows i love it out here.... my life is great..... i honestly couldnt ask for much more than what i have.... the only thing that is getting to me is why im out here.... dont get me wrong i dont regret moving here.. its just i feel that my motivation was for all the wrong reason.... when i came up with the idea i was heart broken.... i had just been dumped by mandy and all i wanted at the time was to get as far away from her and everything that remeinded me of her just because it hurt so bad.... so i did my research and as i was doing that and old flame of mine and i were starting to talk and the promise of a rejuvinated love arose.... when i presented my idea and made the final decision with my rents and everyone that was my situation..... things when to hell from there... mandy and i started to talk again and we got to a point were we were freinds and it didnt hurt much to see or talk to her.... but on the other hand my old flame and i were going downhill fast... at this time it was to late to change my mind about what i was going to do.... now i sit here in san jose california reminicing and thinking... would i do anything diffrent? not really the only thing is to come up with a better more just reason for my decision... i love it here i just feel guilty for my irrational reasoning