Ever get that feeling in the pit of your stomach?
Dear journal, we havent spoken in quite some time.
Well heres a checklist of things I need to do that involves money that I dont particularily(?) have:
Possible car loan (124 mth-5000 total)
Pay other half of Prom dress deposite (150)
cell phone bill (290)
Prom tickets and other things (150-200 depending)
Hospital Bills from car accidents
Food
etc etc
So you can see the rut Im in, UGH!!!! Its terrible, Im only fucking 18, my parents cant help me because... well they cant even help themselves. It sucks, Im only working minimum wage, and Im already failing my Senior Year due to a month of absence from a couple of car accidents I was in, personally I dont see the point in going back this year. But I know that I need to at least try, but Im already soo exhausted from everything else in my life. Jesus, Ive never had soo much responsibility, and with my parents asking me for money its even more complicated, I only make MAYBE 200 every two weeks..thats not much. *sigh* well, anyways...
The Good Side:
Life is good, Im getting back into shape, I havent been doing much of anything drinking or using drugs wise, I occasionally drink and thats how I like it. I am also in a relationship with a wonderful girl, which is nice for once because all of my past relationships well....they seemed one sided. Not even an intentional thing..well most of the time, but it just turned out that way. So its nice for once to have someone whos there with me instead of staying just for the comfort and luxeries.
Hmm, work is okay I keep getting told that I dont put away our store order right, which I find to be utter bullshit, and instead of just TELLING me that, I wish they would back track with me and tell me what I did wrong. Gosh my boss can be soo intimidating sometimes, its creepy. But I will show him I can kick even more ass at this job, I mean I have been working there for nearly 7 months now...I think I can manage.
Well anyways tis my update for now, but Im going to try and update more. But dont worry i still check back here often enough to read your posts..
Loves to you all! Tchao.
-Tena
Well heres a checklist of things I need to do that involves money that I dont particularily(?) have:
Possible car loan (124 mth-5000 total)
Pay other half of Prom dress deposite (150)
cell phone bill (290)
Prom tickets and other things (150-200 depending)
Hospital Bills from car accidents
Food
etc etc
So you can see the rut Im in, UGH!!!! Its terrible, Im only fucking 18, my parents cant help me because... well they cant even help themselves. It sucks, Im only working minimum wage, and Im already failing my Senior Year due to a month of absence from a couple of car accidents I was in, personally I dont see the point in going back this year. But I know that I need to at least try, but Im already soo exhausted from everything else in my life. Jesus, Ive never had soo much responsibility, and with my parents asking me for money its even more complicated, I only make MAYBE 200 every two weeks..thats not much. *sigh* well, anyways...
The Good Side:
Life is good, Im getting back into shape, I havent been doing much of anything drinking or using drugs wise, I occasionally drink and thats how I like it. I am also in a relationship with a wonderful girl, which is nice for once because all of my past relationships well....they seemed one sided. Not even an intentional thing..well most of the time, but it just turned out that way. So its nice for once to have someone whos there with me instead of staying just for the comfort and luxeries.
Hmm, work is okay I keep getting told that I dont put away our store order right, which I find to be utter bullshit, and instead of just TELLING me that, I wish they would back track with me and tell me what I did wrong. Gosh my boss can be soo intimidating sometimes, its creepy. But I will show him I can kick even more ass at this job, I mean I have been working there for nearly 7 months now...I think I can manage.
Well anyways tis my update for now, but Im going to try and update more. But dont worry i still check back here often enough to read your posts..
Loves to you all! Tchao.
-Tena