i cant even muster this feeling..

[tuxedokitten]

god im beating myself up for feeling this way its stupid. i love her soo much and now that shes officially married it hurts? it shouldnt she was never mine to begin with....ugh! ajfeikhnfklasdfjlksdlkafjdskfsa;

i feel mixed up, megan was the girl that...made me smile, was amazing, gorgeous and i cant keep her. theres something better in my life right now and im just waiting to grasp it, but knowing i'll never be able to be intimate with her again really sucks.

im trying to fight tears and i know this is public, however this is the only means of letting the feeling go.

i want to go to Arizona already..

*sighs, hangs head* oh well i need to deal.

other than that, im hungry lol. like really hungry.

and i want to cuddle with my sexy hawaiian friend, sorry shayna its not you this time LOL...plus, you and uhhh cuddling? yeeeeah right!!

j/k loves ya~

okay later kids