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I just had sex with a guy who is 10 years older than me... It wasn't great but it was nice and I remebered what it is I miss so much when having sex with the kid. The time you spend in bed afterwards talking about life and music and just...things. It's always as if when you have had sex there are no secrets between you. You get to see so deeply into the other persons soul...
God I slept with someone who has been married. Who has a 10-year-old daughter...
I'm off to bed. Alone but it felt kind of good. He had to get up really early tomorrow and I don't really miss him here...he gave me the cuddle time so I'm fine really.
It was a nice dinner and afterwards we walked for hours just watching the stars. He is nice. I like him. It probably won't happen again though. He said it would and I guess maybe he meant it and maybe i said it back but i didn't mean it. It was just nice. No fireworks...
I feel all happy and warm inside. This is what it's supposed to feel like when you've had sex.