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I think I'm in some sort of delirium.
Like I'm spaced out on some kind of drug.
I've been totally weird lately. I haven't been able to sleep or eat properly. I think sometimes I forget to do either. Then someone asks me a question or reminds me and I realise what I should be doing but I'm not. Then when I do them I don't compensate for what I've missed I just do them in fits and starts.
I'm totally lost. All my clocks in my room are wrong or have stopped, all in the space of a week. And I have 3 clocks. Right now I could think it was 12 noon but the cold daylight and the birds twittering give the early morning away.
My life is full of meaningless activities. I read somewhere that you can't lead a life just pursuing the materialistic. Which is very true although people either never realise this idea or choose to be ignorant of it. What will your life be like then?
I want to know what it's like to pour all your energy into something. Never in my life do I think I have done that. Perhaps I have? And now I've just forgotten. Maybe running the 4km Cross country in Primary school. I remember the physical pain but carrying on anyway...
Now I'm back in a state of melancholia. Perhaps I should sleep it off.
Like I'm spaced out on some kind of drug.
I've been totally weird lately. I haven't been able to sleep or eat properly. I think sometimes I forget to do either. Then someone asks me a question or reminds me and I realise what I should be doing but I'm not. Then when I do them I don't compensate for what I've missed I just do them in fits and starts.
I'm totally lost. All my clocks in my room are wrong or have stopped, all in the space of a week. And I have 3 clocks. Right now I could think it was 12 noon but the cold daylight and the birds twittering give the early morning away.
My life is full of meaningless activities. I read somewhere that you can't lead a life just pursuing the materialistic. Which is very true although people either never realise this idea or choose to be ignorant of it. What will your life be like then?
I want to know what it's like to pour all your energy into something. Never in my life do I think I have done that. Perhaps I have? And now I've just forgotten. Maybe running the 4km Cross country in Primary school. I remember the physical pain but carrying on anyway...
Now I'm back in a state of melancholia. Perhaps I should sleep it off.