My safe place blog
A scene from Jeremy's head
Please follow along as best you can.
"I'm not looking for anything right now."
Me (in my head): I want to go home.
Me # 2 (earth-crunchy introspective pep talk Jeremy): No no, c'mon Jeremy. Remember your dating worksheet right?
Me: No, I want to go home. I did not come here for this
Me # 2: Positive thoughts Jeremy, this is a learning experience don't forget.
Me: Home. Now.
Me # 2: Now, give him the benefit of the doubt. He told you early on.
Me # 3: (Cynical realist Jeremy, smoking a pipe and reading something pretentious) He's right, the guy did tell you upfront.
Me: I know I know I know.
(silence)
Me: I can't smile any longer, my cheeks hurt.
Me # 2: Well that's a good thing! He's making you laugh and he's never one for silence which you know you hate.
Me: I wish he'd drink that coffee faster. Goddamit I've already sucked down my Chai sugar bomb there should be no reason he can't get through that!
Later on: "I had a great time, I hope to do this again. You know you better kiss me"
Me: Wow this is nice!
Me # 4 (naked Jeremy) Hot, hot hot hot hot! More? More? More?
Me # 1-3: Shut up!
Now of course this is not a representation of the literal things going through my head. It is merely a way to characterize the thought process and the conflicting views throughout those two specific parts of my date. I'm not crazy.
Jer
Please follow along as best you can.
"I'm not looking for anything right now."
Me (in my head): I want to go home.
Me # 2 (earth-crunchy introspective pep talk Jeremy): No no, c'mon Jeremy. Remember your dating worksheet right?
Me: No, I want to go home. I did not come here for this
Me # 2: Positive thoughts Jeremy, this is a learning experience don't forget.
Me: Home. Now.
Me # 2: Now, give him the benefit of the doubt. He told you early on.
Me # 3: (Cynical realist Jeremy, smoking a pipe and reading something pretentious) He's right, the guy did tell you upfront.
Me: I know I know I know.
(silence)
Me: I can't smile any longer, my cheeks hurt.
Me # 2: Well that's a good thing! He's making you laugh and he's never one for silence which you know you hate.
Me: I wish he'd drink that coffee faster. Goddamit I've already sucked down my Chai sugar bomb there should be no reason he can't get through that!
Later on: "I had a great time, I hope to do this again. You know you better kiss me"
Me: Wow this is nice!
Me # 4 (naked Jeremy) Hot, hot hot hot hot! More? More? More?
Me # 1-3: Shut up!
Now of course this is not a representation of the literal things going through my head. It is merely a way to characterize the thought process and the conflicting views throughout those two specific parts of my date. I'm not crazy.
Jer