le ugh
i found a new something to play with, but i havent heard from him in days. or the other one. and now all of a sudden you are talking to me again. i wish i could tell how this world worked. i need something in this sad little life. but alas i know not what it may be. I really am hoping i can get the auto rolling soon. i need a way to escape. i want to escape to you.
at this point any of you.
i think i am again capable of love but i will not know until i try. but i need to find a good candidate. i know what i believe to be my one. but there is a life to live ahead.
started crying my self to sleep again. half because i miss you like its my job, and half because im in soo much pain. my joints are killing me everynight. today i lost the feeling in my right hip and couldnt put any weight on my leg for about 3 hours. now i wobble like a new born giraffe. you dont care, but i wish you did, having some comfort would be nice about now.
i hate that you are quitting things again. i also wish you could find your way. i want you to be happy. i dont want you to leave without me. though i know thats not a possibility in your book at this point.
need to sleep, body and soul are crying in pain.. i cant take this much more.
at this point any of you.
i think i am again capable of love but i will not know until i try. but i need to find a good candidate. i know what i believe to be my one. but there is a life to live ahead.
started crying my self to sleep again. half because i miss you like its my job, and half because im in soo much pain. my joints are killing me everynight. today i lost the feeling in my right hip and couldnt put any weight on my leg for about 3 hours. now i wobble like a new born giraffe. you dont care, but i wish you did, having some comfort would be nice about now.
i hate that you are quitting things again. i also wish you could find your way. i want you to be happy. i dont want you to leave without me. though i know thats not a possibility in your book at this point.
need to sleep, body and soul are crying in pain.. i cant take this much more.