[FIC] : Out of Oblivion
It’s 11:15 and it’s cold.
It wasn’t his habit not until few months ago.
For those entire problems he’s been into, only a fraction of memory of a certain person could make his system lighting on the deepest of nights, digging fading memory to keep it vivid in his mind, body and heart.
He feels so tired but his eyes seem never want to surrender.
It will never-until he felt such crave he’s been longing, not until his physical body would get aroused and enjoyed this lovely illusion pictured by his deprived brain. Those lusty eyes and needy lips that would be glad to be kissed a thousand times by him, and that perfect body carved he believed made to be his possession and his voice kept calling his name for more.
Jin tsked at the middle of the night, having his frustrated hand digging his scalp. He’s never been a stranger in his own body. He could feel his hormones playing a trick to his body, feeling something hot rushing all over his body, mainly to the south.
He needs a release.
Damn you, Kamenashi Kazuya. Damn you! Those were the words his cleared side of brain kept screaming, throwing such blame to the only person whose a pain in his neck, the only person who could only give him such intolerable torture, Kamenashi Kazuya.
Sighing, he grabbed the remote next to his seat and turned the TV on, forgetting his need and hoping that his eyes will soon be in his side. He wants to rest so badly.
But it came opposite as he saw a familiar person flashing in the screen.
It’s Kamenashi Kazuya and his new drama ‘Second Love’ airing.
It’s been a countless months passed since he’d last seen the man. Back when there’s Bruno Mars’ having his concert in Japan, Jin could clearly reminisce Kazuya’s profile view from a distant, spreading a sweet smile like a kid. At that moment, he couldn’t evade something flutter from the inside. Something that urges him not to end the night without having him back so that happened-They made love that night in his apartment.
Jin closed his eyes as he felt the familiar feeling in his heart. The memories were all fresh as yesterday. It’s the day worth waiting for, with Kazuya in his arms...Kissing... and making love. It’s just one night but they had successfully filled the emptiness of their hearts. It’s just their first night after being separated and he’s afraid that would be the last.
He was sure that night will be forever. It will be for real, but it never did. The next morning he found himself in cold without Kazuya beside him. He left nothing, just like a thief who just stolen some precious diamonds. He never thought of being abandoned after getting tired of reaching him again and again. He kept getting back to the apartment until he moved out 3 days after they made love.
The thought made him up every night, wondering about it. He really wanted to go in his apartment again, lock Kazuya in his arms so he won’t go anywhere. Kiss him to remind the younger man who he belong to.
He’s been healed after Kazuya had forgiven Jin’s biggest mistake in life. But he never thought it would be nothing but illusion. He believed to Kazuya, he believed to that night that it would be the beginning of their forever.
God knows he never thought of being abandoned after Kazuya left the apartment, left as if Jin never exists.
Jin can’t lie to himself that it’s painful but he must accept this painful truth. That maybe Kazuya just wanted to revenge so he let Jin think that he’s forgiven. Maybe this is his plan. Leave him without nothing, just like Jin did to him.
Having this reasons to hate the younger man, Jin never lose the eager to see him again. He still loves Kazuya after he was being deceived. He longed to see him again, hoping that it would be the very last time Kazuya will be out in Jin’s arms.
“Ouch...”
Jin left from spacing out as he heard a voice of a woman that almost freaked him out. Thank god that he remembered he opened the TV few moments ago. Since when did he space out?
“What?”
So she must be his leading lady in this new drama. Jin thought to himself. This woman must be familiar to him. He saw her when he’s young and he can’t even remember when or where.
“it’s my hair” After the woman pulled the band in her hair, Kame kissed her passionately. Jin convinced himself that it’s just for the show. But the kiss was just something that was deceiving in his eyes when it’s Kame doing it. He’s been with numerous acting trainings than him and been paired with more women than him so kissing should be something Kamenashi Kazuya had mastered through the years.
So it would be possible that Kazuya kissed him just like the way he kiss his leading ladies in his every drama?
His hand suddenly made its way in his lips as he watched Kame kissing the woman, think of every possibility of Kazuya’s thoughts of the night they’d met and wished that he could replace the woman taking Kazuya’s lips. His Kazuya’s lips. What was he think of while he’s kissing Jin, did he felt loved more than satisfied? Or was it triumph for making Jin fall into his trap?
Now he felt more uncomfortable, he should be forgetting this hardness forming below and yet Kazuya’s sight in screen, half-naked made it more difficult. But he had the pride of a man and decided to take a cold shower instead.
It’s been countless months since he learned to blame the world for letting their paths to meet the same point again. Blame himself for loving this much reaching to the point that’s he suffered to both body and soul.
He kept blaming anything he sees, yet he can’t blame Kazuya for he love this man very much that he’s willing to leave everything if he tell him so, hate everything if he needed to.
Just to be with him, and this time there will be not a single thing could separate Jin from Kazuya.
Out of himself, Jin just found himself naked in the bathroom, damped with water sprinkling in the shower as he kept letting his moans out of his mouth, satisfying himself with his own hand touching his own shaft, making him awake than ever. This should be Kazuya’s hands, he kept thinking as he’s imagining Kazuya beautiful face in front of him, waiting for his lips to soon be taste by his own. Into the oblivion, he just bit his lower lip, savouring the tiny pleasure brought by his hand by stroking his length faster as Kazuya’s lusty moans of their last making love echoed in his ears, as if it’s real... as if Kazuya’s here, moaning for more, searching for him.
He had his man-pride he’s been keeping of, but it’s Kazuya who’s making it just like a paper getting blown by the wind.
He longed for Kazuya...Kiss him... touch him.. this were all Jin’s wishes he’s hoping to get real within these months. He wouldn’t get satisfied if it’s him, he wanted him physically-to feel him wrapped around him, to hear his moans of pleadings, and to make him pay of what he did to him.
“I think you need some help there.”
This must be a dream...
He convinced himself that he’s crazy enough to think that he just heard the man of his desires called out. Jin opened his eyes, can’t believed of what he’s been seeing.
Kazuya smirked at Jin’s stunned expression “Don’t stare at me like I’m a ghost.” He said as he didn’t take his eyes off the man as he unbuttoned his shirt in front of him “Miss me?”
Jin tried his best to wash off his daze, so it must be real....
He saw the exact body frame just like in the drama he just watched. He’s so sexy that Jin felt his drool on his mouth but gladly thanks to the shower, it kept unseen to the younger man’s eyes.
As soon as he believed in his eyes, Jin wasted no time to locked Kazuya in his arms, disregarding if the younger was still wearing his pants and get soaked under the shower. This warmth that he’s been longing for was finally here. He’s finally here and Jin’s was so happy like he’d just found his long-lost half of his soul.
“I missed you.” Jin buried his face in Kazuya’s exposed shoulders, smelling the mixed of smoke and his favourite perfume.
I missed you. Very damn much!
Kazuya hesitantly raised his arms, wrapping them to the larger body closer to him as he hummed “I know.” And closed his eyes, happily listening to Jin’s heartbeat pounding against his own chest.
Having Kazuya confident and yet true remark Jin straighten up to meet Kazuya’s lovingly eyes “How did you-“
He was caught with Kazuya’s lips “I’ll tell later.” He talked between his butterfly kisses in Jin’s lips as he purred “Let’s deal with you first.”
“Uhn,” Jin actively respond to Kazuya’s soft kisses, turning it to a torrid, wild kiss. Things in his mind were getting all unarranged, he’s getting blank to the things that wasn’t relevant to Kazuya and having sex with him tonight. All he want was him, only him.
“ARGH BABE---“
“Shh.” The shorter man purred as he reached Jin’s hardened member, already oozing from his unfinished ejaculation. Kazuya knew he’s getting close so he wouldn’t mind helping him to release “I wanna help.”
Jin was amazed how the younger man tend to be more dominant tonight as he’s been pushed at wall and kissed him so hard, leaving him breathless as he slowly advanced lower and lower going to his needy member. Kazuya took a second look as he knelt down, taking Jin all in his mouth as the taller man groaned in the hotness and pleasure he’s been experiencing in Kazuya’s mouth.
Kazuya hold Jin’s waist as he moved his head faster, blowing Jin’s mind in an instant. He looked down and unexpectedly meet Kazuya’s needy eyes seducing him like a siren as he took him down deeper to the throat in which Jin had explode in overwhelming pleasure.
Upon Jin’s release with a cry of his name, Kazuya managed to take all of his sweet juice down to his throat. He didn’t want to waste any drop of his warm cum as he took time cleaning the shaft with his skilful tongue before letting of him.
Jin hauled the shorter one to stand up, and right away filled his lips with his own. In hunger and lust, Jin didn’t let go of him until his tongue has been permitted to enter such cavern of hotness he longed for, never cared that he tasted his own juice inside Kazuya mouth. The other man moaned, throwing his arms in his neck to support his weakened knees as Jin held him in waist, tasting his luscious bare skin and marking it to be his again.
He wanted this body to be only touched by and nothing else.
“Tell me.” His hoarse voice rang in Kazuya’s ears “Where that woman did touched you?”
“Woman? who?”
Jin held him closer as possible, kissing him gently to his cheeks “That woman. In that drama show of yours.”
He was surprised as Kazuya pushed him to meet his eyes filled with envy “You mean Kyoko-chan?”
“Kyoko-chan? Who’s that kyoko-chan?”
“Are you serious?” Kazuya chuckled as he saw Jin’s pouting like a little boy “got jealous by watching a drama?”
And there’s a long silence coming from Jin.
“Oh no.” Kame gaped “Like… Really? Jin?” the bathroom filled with heart-warming laughs from Kame. It was contagious that Jin got infected, chuckling with him, though he felt awkward that the latter had noticed it.
“You’re so cute,” he sweetly smiled, taking Jin into his arms “I never thought those small thing could affect you… this much.”
“I just…missed you.” Jin stammered hugging Kame’s waist “You never called me ever since we…” last had each other. And it’s been so damn long, you idiot!
“That’s why I came here,” Kame said, burying his face into Jin’s shoulders “I’m sorry. I really am. I didn’t what that to happen but…”
“Hush.” He pushed the latter to meet his eyes, smiling “I understand. You have more things to prioritize and being a Johnny is a pain in the butt, so I really understand.”
But still it didn’t comfort the younger, Jin knew it but then he caressed the other one’s face and kissed his lips “I love you… and nothing’s gonna change. Even if you leave me, I will wait for you forever to come back, no matter what. I’ll just stay here and love you for the rest of my life, Kazuya.”
The shower was on, but Jin could feel the hot drops of Kame’s tears from his eyes. The shorter one hugged Jin, saying “Not a single day I’ve been praying to see you again…”
“I love you too, Jin.”
A/N: I made this way back then when Second Love still airing.I really miss writing here. It's good to be back (for a while ;_;)
THANKS FOR READING GUYS! <3
It wasn’t his habit not until few months ago.
For those entire problems he’s been into, only a fraction of memory of a certain person could make his system lighting on the deepest of nights, digging fading memory to keep it vivid in his mind, body and heart.
He feels so tired but his eyes seem never want to surrender.
It will never-until he felt such crave he’s been longing, not until his physical body would get aroused and enjoyed this lovely illusion pictured by his deprived brain. Those lusty eyes and needy lips that would be glad to be kissed a thousand times by him, and that perfect body carved he believed made to be his possession and his voice kept calling his name for more.
Jin tsked at the middle of the night, having his frustrated hand digging his scalp. He’s never been a stranger in his own body. He could feel his hormones playing a trick to his body, feeling something hot rushing all over his body, mainly to the south.
He needs a release.
Damn you, Kamenashi Kazuya. Damn you! Those were the words his cleared side of brain kept screaming, throwing such blame to the only person whose a pain in his neck, the only person who could only give him such intolerable torture, Kamenashi Kazuya.
Sighing, he grabbed the remote next to his seat and turned the TV on, forgetting his need and hoping that his eyes will soon be in his side. He wants to rest so badly.
But it came opposite as he saw a familiar person flashing in the screen.
It’s Kamenashi Kazuya and his new drama ‘Second Love’ airing.
It’s been a countless months passed since he’d last seen the man. Back when there’s Bruno Mars’ having his concert in Japan, Jin could clearly reminisce Kazuya’s profile view from a distant, spreading a sweet smile like a kid. At that moment, he couldn’t evade something flutter from the inside. Something that urges him not to end the night without having him back so that happened-They made love that night in his apartment.
Jin closed his eyes as he felt the familiar feeling in his heart. The memories were all fresh as yesterday. It’s the day worth waiting for, with Kazuya in his arms...Kissing... and making love. It’s just one night but they had successfully filled the emptiness of their hearts. It’s just their first night after being separated and he’s afraid that would be the last.
He was sure that night will be forever. It will be for real, but it never did. The next morning he found himself in cold without Kazuya beside him. He left nothing, just like a thief who just stolen some precious diamonds. He never thought of being abandoned after getting tired of reaching him again and again. He kept getting back to the apartment until he moved out 3 days after they made love.
The thought made him up every night, wondering about it. He really wanted to go in his apartment again, lock Kazuya in his arms so he won’t go anywhere. Kiss him to remind the younger man who he belong to.
He’s been healed after Kazuya had forgiven Jin’s biggest mistake in life. But he never thought it would be nothing but illusion. He believed to Kazuya, he believed to that night that it would be the beginning of their forever.
God knows he never thought of being abandoned after Kazuya left the apartment, left as if Jin never exists.
Jin can’t lie to himself that it’s painful but he must accept this painful truth. That maybe Kazuya just wanted to revenge so he let Jin think that he’s forgiven. Maybe this is his plan. Leave him without nothing, just like Jin did to him.
Having this reasons to hate the younger man, Jin never lose the eager to see him again. He still loves Kazuya after he was being deceived. He longed to see him again, hoping that it would be the very last time Kazuya will be out in Jin’s arms.
“Ouch...”
Jin left from spacing out as he heard a voice of a woman that almost freaked him out. Thank god that he remembered he opened the TV few moments ago. Since when did he space out?
“What?”
So she must be his leading lady in this new drama. Jin thought to himself. This woman must be familiar to him. He saw her when he’s young and he can’t even remember when or where.
“it’s my hair” After the woman pulled the band in her hair, Kame kissed her passionately. Jin convinced himself that it’s just for the show. But the kiss was just something that was deceiving in his eyes when it’s Kame doing it. He’s been with numerous acting trainings than him and been paired with more women than him so kissing should be something Kamenashi Kazuya had mastered through the years.
So it would be possible that Kazuya kissed him just like the way he kiss his leading ladies in his every drama?
His hand suddenly made its way in his lips as he watched Kame kissing the woman, think of every possibility of Kazuya’s thoughts of the night they’d met and wished that he could replace the woman taking Kazuya’s lips. His Kazuya’s lips. What was he think of while he’s kissing Jin, did he felt loved more than satisfied? Or was it triumph for making Jin fall into his trap?
Now he felt more uncomfortable, he should be forgetting this hardness forming below and yet Kazuya’s sight in screen, half-naked made it more difficult. But he had the pride of a man and decided to take a cold shower instead.
It’s been countless months since he learned to blame the world for letting their paths to meet the same point again. Blame himself for loving this much reaching to the point that’s he suffered to both body and soul.
He kept blaming anything he sees, yet he can’t blame Kazuya for he love this man very much that he’s willing to leave everything if he tell him so, hate everything if he needed to.
Just to be with him, and this time there will be not a single thing could separate Jin from Kazuya.
Out of himself, Jin just found himself naked in the bathroom, damped with water sprinkling in the shower as he kept letting his moans out of his mouth, satisfying himself with his own hand touching his own shaft, making him awake than ever. This should be Kazuya’s hands, he kept thinking as he’s imagining Kazuya beautiful face in front of him, waiting for his lips to soon be taste by his own. Into the oblivion, he just bit his lower lip, savouring the tiny pleasure brought by his hand by stroking his length faster as Kazuya’s lusty moans of their last making love echoed in his ears, as if it’s real... as if Kazuya’s here, moaning for more, searching for him.
He had his man-pride he’s been keeping of, but it’s Kazuya who’s making it just like a paper getting blown by the wind.
He longed for Kazuya...Kiss him... touch him.. this were all Jin’s wishes he’s hoping to get real within these months. He wouldn’t get satisfied if it’s him, he wanted him physically-to feel him wrapped around him, to hear his moans of pleadings, and to make him pay of what he did to him.
“I think you need some help there.”
This must be a dream...
He convinced himself that he’s crazy enough to think that he just heard the man of his desires called out. Jin opened his eyes, can’t believed of what he’s been seeing.
Kazuya smirked at Jin’s stunned expression “Don’t stare at me like I’m a ghost.” He said as he didn’t take his eyes off the man as he unbuttoned his shirt in front of him “Miss me?”
Jin tried his best to wash off his daze, so it must be real....
He saw the exact body frame just like in the drama he just watched. He’s so sexy that Jin felt his drool on his mouth but gladly thanks to the shower, it kept unseen to the younger man’s eyes.
As soon as he believed in his eyes, Jin wasted no time to locked Kazuya in his arms, disregarding if the younger was still wearing his pants and get soaked under the shower. This warmth that he’s been longing for was finally here. He’s finally here and Jin’s was so happy like he’d just found his long-lost half of his soul.
“I missed you.” Jin buried his face in Kazuya’s exposed shoulders, smelling the mixed of smoke and his favourite perfume.
I missed you. Very damn much!
Kazuya hesitantly raised his arms, wrapping them to the larger body closer to him as he hummed “I know.” And closed his eyes, happily listening to Jin’s heartbeat pounding against his own chest.
Having Kazuya confident and yet true remark Jin straighten up to meet Kazuya’s lovingly eyes “How did you-“
He was caught with Kazuya’s lips “I’ll tell later.” He talked between his butterfly kisses in Jin’s lips as he purred “Let’s deal with you first.”
“Uhn,” Jin actively respond to Kazuya’s soft kisses, turning it to a torrid, wild kiss. Things in his mind were getting all unarranged, he’s getting blank to the things that wasn’t relevant to Kazuya and having sex with him tonight. All he want was him, only him.
“ARGH BABE---“
“Shh.” The shorter man purred as he reached Jin’s hardened member, already oozing from his unfinished ejaculation. Kazuya knew he’s getting close so he wouldn’t mind helping him to release “I wanna help.”
Jin was amazed how the younger man tend to be more dominant tonight as he’s been pushed at wall and kissed him so hard, leaving him breathless as he slowly advanced lower and lower going to his needy member. Kazuya took a second look as he knelt down, taking Jin all in his mouth as the taller man groaned in the hotness and pleasure he’s been experiencing in Kazuya’s mouth.
Kazuya hold Jin’s waist as he moved his head faster, blowing Jin’s mind in an instant. He looked down and unexpectedly meet Kazuya’s needy eyes seducing him like a siren as he took him down deeper to the throat in which Jin had explode in overwhelming pleasure.
Upon Jin’s release with a cry of his name, Kazuya managed to take all of his sweet juice down to his throat. He didn’t want to waste any drop of his warm cum as he took time cleaning the shaft with his skilful tongue before letting of him.
Jin hauled the shorter one to stand up, and right away filled his lips with his own. In hunger and lust, Jin didn’t let go of him until his tongue has been permitted to enter such cavern of hotness he longed for, never cared that he tasted his own juice inside Kazuya mouth. The other man moaned, throwing his arms in his neck to support his weakened knees as Jin held him in waist, tasting his luscious bare skin and marking it to be his again.
He wanted this body to be only touched by and nothing else.
“Tell me.” His hoarse voice rang in Kazuya’s ears “Where that woman did touched you?”
“Woman? who?”
Jin held him closer as possible, kissing him gently to his cheeks “That woman. In that drama show of yours.”
He was surprised as Kazuya pushed him to meet his eyes filled with envy “You mean Kyoko-chan?”
“Kyoko-chan? Who’s that kyoko-chan?”
“Are you serious?” Kazuya chuckled as he saw Jin’s pouting like a little boy “got jealous by watching a drama?”
And there’s a long silence coming from Jin.
“Oh no.” Kame gaped “Like… Really? Jin?” the bathroom filled with heart-warming laughs from Kame. It was contagious that Jin got infected, chuckling with him, though he felt awkward that the latter had noticed it.
“You’re so cute,” he sweetly smiled, taking Jin into his arms “I never thought those small thing could affect you… this much.”
“I just…missed you.” Jin stammered hugging Kame’s waist “You never called me ever since we…” last had each other. And it’s been so damn long, you idiot!
“That’s why I came here,” Kame said, burying his face into Jin’s shoulders “I’m sorry. I really am. I didn’t what that to happen but…”
“Hush.” He pushed the latter to meet his eyes, smiling “I understand. You have more things to prioritize and being a Johnny is a pain in the butt, so I really understand.”
But still it didn’t comfort the younger, Jin knew it but then he caressed the other one’s face and kissed his lips “I love you… and nothing’s gonna change. Even if you leave me, I will wait for you forever to come back, no matter what. I’ll just stay here and love you for the rest of my life, Kazuya.”
The shower was on, but Jin could feel the hot drops of Kame’s tears from his eyes. The shorter one hugged Jin, saying “Not a single day I’ve been praying to see you again…”
“I love you too, Jin.”
A/N: I made this way back then when Second Love still airing.I really miss writing here. It's good to be back (for a while ;_;)
THANKS FOR READING GUYS! <3