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well i might not be getting full financial aid, which is the most retardedest thing ever, i wont have income in college, im quitting subway when i have to go to school and i dont have rich parents who will pay for everything, im going to have to take out a loan and then ill be in debt, and blah blah blah, im so sick of worrying about the future and what im going to be and how im going to live if i dont have a home or a good job that pays well and one that i actually like... and whats worse i dont get my social security check after may, i wont even be 18 until june.. im stressed.
-and the boys situation, screw guys, i dont need a guy to make me happy although it would be nice, i dont need a guy around to have fun.. and i dont need a guy for sex, i have lacey.... just joking!.. heh. plus MOST guys are assholes and i have no luck to find the good ones... (notice i said MOST ryan and derek?)
and i miss amanda, and lacey, i hardley ever hang out with either one of them anymore, because amanda moved, its not like it was before when i could walk to her house whenever i wanted to, now she lives in the village.. and i hardley ever see lacey anymore because dereks always there, and she doesnt seem like she wants to hang out with me anymore, like all of the sudden im not allowed to spend then night and all thses other things are suddenly coming up, its crap, and im going to have a talk with her about all this because its starting to be like how it was when she was with justin and im not going to let that happen again, im sorry but it cant, im not going to loose her as a friend this time. and lacey i know you will be reading this but hopefully by then i would have already talked to you about whats been bugging me.
-and the boys situation, screw guys, i dont need a guy to make me happy although it would be nice, i dont need a guy around to have fun.. and i dont need a guy for sex, i have lacey.... just joking!.. heh. plus MOST guys are assholes and i have no luck to find the good ones... (notice i said MOST ryan and derek?)
and i miss amanda, and lacey, i hardley ever hang out with either one of them anymore, because amanda moved, its not like it was before when i could walk to her house whenever i wanted to, now she lives in the village.. and i hardley ever see lacey anymore because dereks always there, and she doesnt seem like she wants to hang out with me anymore, like all of the sudden im not allowed to spend then night and all thses other things are suddenly coming up, its crap, and im going to have a talk with her about all this because its starting to be like how it was when she was with justin and im not going to let that happen again, im sorry but it cant, im not going to loose her as a friend this time. and lacey i know you will be reading this but hopefully by then i would have already talked to you about whats been bugging me.