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so i do this thing where im really insecure. its nothing really but it does randomly flare up. it's kind of a horrible feeling. my chest tightens..breathing becomes hard and my hearts starts racing and this all happens pretty much instantaneously. You may ask yourself, sarah where are you going with this?
well i'll tell you. there's this guy im dating. im actually kind of in love with him. he and i have been up down and all over the place but in the end i realized that i love him and that he treats me the way that i should be treated and he has so many things that i want in a guy, needless to say i've found someone worth commiting to. Someone who makes me feel safe and happy and beautiful.
cue insecurity flare up.
there's this girl sierra. she's the equivalent of my dillon. Except he's been in relationships before and cheated on that girl for her. She's the one that he cant explain why he's drawn to her, the one that doesnt make sense and shouldnt even really be competition but for some completely illogical reason is.
they're facebook friends now. not only that but they're talking. she wants to "hang out"
let me explain this girl to everyone, she's blonde, gorgeous, big green eyes and has pictures with the word hooker written across her chest. HER FUCKING CHEST. i have pictures of me in a kitty cat costume with my siblings and that's about as sexy as it gets (at least on facebook cause im not a whore..just saying). I know im being ridiculous. i know he loves me. at least i hope he does. I just dont know. i hate this. he should've told me. i tell him when i hang out with dillon (if i still did, anyway)
Anyway...
in other news...
i got a job at old navy. pretty excited. 8.25 an hour. yay :)
matt sharp has strep so i was taking care of him all day.
and then i went to filbertos with chels. (cause she randomly wanted enchiladas lol. even though she eventually ordered a chicken burrito. whatev.
oh and of course tyler naylor was there. i guess he and i arent friends anymore. idk if it's permanent this time or not. i guess i'll just wait and see. it's probably best that im not talking to him anymore. it made matt super uncomfortable. unnecessarily so. and, to be honest, it was a bit dangerous for me to spend to much time alone with tyler. i know that i have talked alot of shit about him but he has this draw to him. not like dillon, it's more of a curiosity almost. i dont know how to describe it but there's something about him that's undeniably alluring. someday i'll figure it out but until then it's probably best that i keep my distance.
oh and matt got promoted at work and apparently im not far behind. you'd think after quadrupling the time i spend there they'd give it to me, i was wrong.
i like our new gm. mr asta. he seems like a really cool dude. for the most part.
Still love mr. heet. he's kind of fantastic. and by kind of, i mean, completly.
well i'll tell you. there's this guy im dating. im actually kind of in love with him. he and i have been up down and all over the place but in the end i realized that i love him and that he treats me the way that i should be treated and he has so many things that i want in a guy, needless to say i've found someone worth commiting to. Someone who makes me feel safe and happy and beautiful.
cue insecurity flare up.
there's this girl sierra. she's the equivalent of my dillon. Except he's been in relationships before and cheated on that girl for her. She's the one that he cant explain why he's drawn to her, the one that doesnt make sense and shouldnt even really be competition but for some completely illogical reason is.
they're facebook friends now. not only that but they're talking. she wants to "hang out"
let me explain this girl to everyone, she's blonde, gorgeous, big green eyes and has pictures with the word hooker written across her chest. HER FUCKING CHEST. i have pictures of me in a kitty cat costume with my siblings and that's about as sexy as it gets (at least on facebook cause im not a whore..just saying). I know im being ridiculous. i know he loves me. at least i hope he does. I just dont know. i hate this. he should've told me. i tell him when i hang out with dillon (if i still did, anyway)
Anyway...
in other news...
i got a job at old navy. pretty excited. 8.25 an hour. yay :)
matt sharp has strep so i was taking care of him all day.
and then i went to filbertos with chels. (cause she randomly wanted enchiladas lol. even though she eventually ordered a chicken burrito. whatev.
oh and of course tyler naylor was there. i guess he and i arent friends anymore. idk if it's permanent this time or not. i guess i'll just wait and see. it's probably best that im not talking to him anymore. it made matt super uncomfortable. unnecessarily so. and, to be honest, it was a bit dangerous for me to spend to much time alone with tyler. i know that i have talked alot of shit about him but he has this draw to him. not like dillon, it's more of a curiosity almost. i dont know how to describe it but there's something about him that's undeniably alluring. someday i'll figure it out but until then it's probably best that i keep my distance.
oh and matt got promoted at work and apparently im not far behind. you'd think after quadrupling the time i spend there they'd give it to me, i was wrong.
i like our new gm. mr asta. he seems like a really cool dude. for the most part.
Still love mr. heet. he's kind of fantastic. and by kind of, i mean, completly.