Starlight is Falling
Title: Starlight is Falling
Pairing: YeKyu/KyuSung
Rating: PG
Genre: Fluff, Romance
Disclaimer: Don't own the boys, or else they'd be in holding a private Super Show 4 for me now.
Summary: What-ifs, alternate realities and a lot of speculation. But Jongwoon ultimately "proves" to Kyuhyun that loves always finds a way.
Happy birthday allspecialsmile! ♥
A light breeze blows through the playground, and Jongwoon shivers slightly from the cold. He can’t hear much apart from the sounds of the distant traffic and the creaking from the swings, and he doesn’t break the silence as Kyuhyun leans over and interlocks their fingers. He looks up to the stars, and studies the various constellations. He spots Polaris, his favorite star, shining brightly in the night sky. Memories of how he first opened up to Kyuhyun flood his brain, and he smiles to himself as he thinks back to six years ago when the maknae first joined the group. Jongwoon tightens his grip on Kyuhyun’s hand, and closes his eyes.
“Why do you ignore me? I know you secretly look after me, so why do you act like I don’t exist?”
Because…if I didn’t ignore you, I don’t think I would be able to control myself.
“Do you think we would’ve met and fallen in love if I didn’t join Super Junior six years ago?”
A quiet question cuts through the night, and Jongwoon slowly opens his eyes and looks at his boyfriend in surprise. It wasn’t a question that he had ever thought about, and his brows furrow as he thinks of what an appropriate answer for Kyuhyun would be.
“Hm. What do you think?”
“I…don’t think we would’ve met.”
Jongwoon chuckles at the answer Kyuhyun gives him, even though it catches him by surprise. He would’ve thought Kyuhyun, out of all people, would naïvely believe that they would’ve met regardless of any decision they made during their lives. He swings back and forth as they settle into silence again, although it is no longer the comfortable tranquility that they shared a while ago. Jongwoon swears he can feel how upset Kyuhyun is at the notion that they wouldn’t have met. Although Kyuhyun is mature, he sometimes could act like a child.
“I just want you to acknowledge my existence from time to time. Is that so hard?”
Acknowledging your existence isn’t hard. The hard part is pretending that I don’t care about you when I do.
“Well, I think we would’ve met no matter what.”
Kyuhyun lifts his head up in surprise at Jongwoon’s bold declaration.
“Think about it this way - you would’ve become a doctor if you hadn’t decided to pursue your dream of becoming a singer, am I right?”
“Yes…”
“So Dr. Cho. In an alternate reality, where it is still May 2012, imagine this. You’ve been working as a doctor at a fancy hospital in Seoul…maybe Seoul National University Hospital for quite some time. I would still be a singer - maybe not part of Super Junior as we know it, but some variation of it. I’m most likely just as clumsy as I am now. How do you think we would meet?”
Jongwoon smiles as he watches Kyuhyun ponder the question seriously, and he feels his heart soar as a grin breaks out on Kyuhyun’s face.
“You’d probably break a bone from falling off-stage, and I’d be the doctor operating on you! Then we’d meet!"
"And you’d fall in love with me at first glance while I’m knocked out from the anesthesia, and stalk me in the hospital while I’m recovering. And I’d take pity on you and agree to a date.”
“Oh please, you’d wake up and fall in love with me immediately and beg one of the nurses for my number.”
“In your dreams.”
“We’re part of a team, and as a team we need to work together. Do you hate me that much that you can’t even work with me?”
It’s not hate, you idiot. It’s love. A love that I’m not allowed to express.
They fell silent again. Kyuhyun was staring at the city lights in the distance when he suddenly turns to Jongwoon.
“Hyung! What if…you never became a singer? Then we wouldn’t have met!”
Jongwoon wonders why Kyuhyun is so fixated on this whole “problem” when it clearly will never happen. But he still thinks back to his high school years to try and get rid of all of his boyfriend’s unnecessary worries.
All his life, he has always known that he wanted to be a singer. But he never thought he would be able to achieve his dream until his mother forced him to join that singing competition all those years ago. He thinks about what he would do if he didn’t sing, and the only thing that comes to mind is running Handel and Gretel with his family.
“I probably would’ve opened something similar to Handel and Gretel. And you, being the coffee addict that you are, would walk straight into my clutches. I’d find you cute, and write my number on the cup for you. You’ll call me because I’m irresistible, and we fall in love, et cetera.”
“Oh please, as if I’d call you when I first meet you - you’re so weird and awkward.”
“Awkward? Me? I feel offended.”
“You’re so nice to the other members…and I can’t help but feel jealous.”
But why are you jealous when the one who has the biggest piece of my heart is you?
“But hyung…”
Jongwoon sighs and wonders what problem that Kyuhyun has discovered now.
“What if I went overseas? To study in Japan on something…?”
Kyuhyun’s eyes widen in horror, and Jongwoon tries to maintain a straight face when all he wants to do is laugh at how serious Kyuhyun is.
“Well, remember your subway theory?”
“That I’d meet my true love on the subway?”
“Yeah. Well, remember how I like to ride the subway in Osaka? You’d probably bump into me while I was enjoying my freedom from all the fans I have in Korea. And immediately fall for my good looks as soon as I touch your philtrum.”
“Hyung you’re so ridiculous. You do realize how unlikely it is that it’d ever happen?”
“But we’re meant to be together. Love always finds a way!”
“You’re such a cheeseball.”
“You know you love it.”
Kyuhyun pokes Jongwoon as they both start laughing hysterically. As the laughing subsides, they fall into a comfortable silence once again. Jongwoon starts to observe the stars again.
“All I want to do is understand how you think. I can’t tell what’s in that head of yours.”
I know you don’t understand how I think or feel, because if you did we wouldn’t be having this conversation right now.
Although neither of them is speaking, Jongwoon knows that Kyuhyun is also thinking back to five years ago when they met at this very playground. Jongwoon smiles as he remembers how the maknae had finally lost his temper at him after joining the team for a year.
Jongwoon can still remember how hard his heart had flipped when he first saw the newest member. He felt as though he couldn’t breathe, and the first thought that came to his head was oh shit, this couldn’t be happening. He gradually fell in love more and more as he got to know the maknae, even though he had ignored Kyuhyun completely. It didn’t help that Kyuhyun desperately tried to get his attention, the attention of the one hyung that kept disregarding him. Jongwoon smirks as he remembers how his baby maknae even tried to do aegyo on him - it was extremely difficult to maintain a straight face when all he wanted to do was laugh.
It took a year before Kyuhyun gave up on trying to please Jongwoon. He marched into the dorm one day and grabbed Jongwoon’s hand. He dragged Jongwoon out to the playground nearby. Jongwoon was too shocked to respond and just waited for Kyuhyun to speak. Kyuhyun had taken a deep breath and vented out why he found Jongwoon annoying and why he didn’t understand why Jongwoon didn’t like him. How he didn’t understand why he still fell in love with Jongwoon when Jongwoon treated him so terribly.
Neither of them is speaking, but Jongwoon knows that both of them are thinking the same thing: thank god I found him this way, because who knows how much longer it would’ve taken if it were any other way.
“I don’t understand why you treat me so badly. And I don’t understand why I still love you even though you treat me badly.”
“Because deep in your heart, you know how I feel about you.”
The sudden vibration of Jongwoon’s cell phone jolts him from his reminiscing, and he quickly checks the message.
“Jungsu-hyung wants us back at the dorm - he says Kibum, Hangeng and Heechul just arrived. We better get going…it’s been ages since all fifteen of us had dinner together.”
Jongwoon pulls Kyuhyun up from the swing, and is about to turn around to head back to the dorm when Kyuhyun whisks him around again. He feels Kyuhyun plants a kiss firmly on his lips, and both of them melt into each other. Their surroundings disappear until only starlight is falling around them.
“Happy anniversary Jongwoonie-hyung. I love you.”
“Kyu-ah, I love you too.”
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A/N: Bon anniversaire allspecialsmile! Je suis très désolé que cela soit publié aussi tard, mais j’espère que tu l’aimes :)
Okay I'm going to stop writing French since I'm totally out of practice (forgive me if I used the wrong tenses...). Anyways, HAPPY BIRTHDAY! I've been cursed with writer's block, so I hope you find this okay :P Je t'aime!!
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