Malaise
Title: Malaise
Pairing: broken!KyuSung (Kyuhyun x Yesung), ninja!Yesica (Yesung x Jessica)
Rating: PG
Genre: Angst, dystopia!AU
Disclaimer: I don't own any of the people mentioned in this. Unfortunately.
Summary: Love is a disease (not to mention illegal) and they have a cure for it.
10 Settings Challenge: #7 - Mountains
( Kyuhyun's heart started to feel numb after so much hurt. )
Pairing: broken!KyuSung (Kyuhyun x Yesung), ninja!Yesica (Yesung x Jessica)
Rating: PG
Genre: Angst, dystopia!AU
Disclaimer: I don't own any of the people mentioned in this. Unfortunately.
Summary: Love is a disease (not to mention illegal) and they have a cure for it.
10 Settings Challenge: #7 - Mountains
( Kyuhyun's heart started to feel numb after so much hurt. )
I don't know. I'm a fail with these things. Well well well.
First, I've been reading your fictions for a little time now, and I'm sorry to be such a silent reader; I don't have a lot of time with school and that's why, and as I'm always talking too much in my reviews and all, I always end up spending a lot lot lot of time writing reviews, and I'm fearing I won't have time for that anymore; so that's it. But I'm sorry again
Actually, I read all your fan fictions, and I'm a gamer, not a Cloud like I figured many were commenting on your fictions. (though I didn't take a long time looking at this so I might be mistaken) and and and...
there were ALL so lovely. seriously I loved them all. I find one a little weird though, but I really loved them all. No, that's not the only word. The word is "sweet". I wouldn't know how to put it otherwise. I think one of my favorite was petrichor, because it was bittersweet and this is the best and it was happy at the end and. I love this. I TOTALLY LOVE THIS. But I loved them all so much (if you didn't get it already, I'm such an annoying person), and I hope you will continue to write such good and sweet and easing and ovbgfasns stories.
Well, I'm a little confused as I'm a little sick here, so sorry if I don't make sense TT .
About the one here. The one I didn't see oô . THE ONE I MISSED, WAE. So I jumped on it when I saw that I missed it, and read it, and was all ready to be all emotional and stuff because I'm a crying whore, and I was prepared as it was angst and broken Kyusung, to be all sad at the end.
Well this didn't fail as I ended up with tears in my eyes, and it was so... it's so... sad, bitter, awful, terrible, beautiful, heartbreaking, aching. it's so... I want to cry again just thinking about it because I feel really sad and broken right now.
That was so beautiful though it was so so so so so painful. It really was. You made me want to read this book, I must so read it. (But I must finish to read "Never Let Me Go" , but I so will read that ;_; <3)
I loved how you described Kyuhyun's feelings and how he's doubting about love in this world. About the meaning and the prospect of it. If it was really worth it, and how he just don't want to forget about Jongwoon like he thinks the latter did. How he just don't want to be emotionless and not to know how this is, how this was so simple and lovely. And it hurt me to read that:
"I'm sorry. But at least you won't care after the operation tomorrow."
"I know. I just wish my surgery was scheduled earlier.""
It's just heartbreaking. He don't want to erase these memories and feelings right, but it's hurting him nonetheless and it's so sad and ... ;_; .
And the end, with Jongwoon's point of view was oh so overwhelming and heartbreaking too. and I totally cried, and I wanted them to be together so much, even if it's impossible this way and in this world.
That was really beautiful and sad at the same time, and so well written. Thank you.
Not only for this one fiction, but also for all the others that I took so much pleasure to read and made me smile, laugh or a little break inside while reading it. :) <3 (but as your stories generally end happy, I'm all smiling and stuff. and I don't generally end happy ends that much, because I fear it's too easy and too plain but it's not in your fics, it's just right and sweet.)
- I'm just curious about what point though. Why didn't Jongwoon forget about all of this? Was is because the cure don't really work (at least for two men) or because his love was too strong?
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AND, sorry I forgot one other thing on the way.
Is "Malaise" an English word as well? :D Because it's a French word too at least ~ and it's funny to see it here :)
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Haha yes, I'm a Cloud myself, so a lot of my friends are too xP I tend to write a little more biased towards Jongwoon, but I try to balance it out most of the time.
I'm so glad you loved them! Petrichor was one of my favorites too :)
The book Delirium is quite good - I've finally finished it woohoo! - it's on par with the Hunger Games as a pretty good young adult dystopia novel. I wrote this before I had actually delved into the novel too much, and just borrowed the concept of a society where love was a disease. The novel talks about it in much more detail, and I really enjoyed reading about it.
(On a completely irrelevant note, Never Let Me Go by Kazuo Ishiguro?)
Haha yes, I dislike unhappy ending (if that isn't apparent yet from my fics). I'm glad you think that the happy endings in my fics are good though ^^ *phew*
For me, I think it's the latter - his love for Kyuhyun was so strong that even after the procedure he couldn't forget what he felt for Kyuhyun. But due to the restrictions in society, he had to let Kyuhyun go in order to ensure that both of them had a chance at living a good life.
Malaise is an English word too, if I'm not mistaken, but I knew about it as a French word (I took French for a few years in high school) :P
Thank you again for leaving me such a lovely comment :)
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Haha, Yes I knew you were a cloud. But even though it didn't feel like your writings were so much biased towards Jongwoon? or is it just me who's blind? x'D
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Ow I see. :D I'll tell you when I'll read this. but I'm not sure it will be really soon because of many things, but I'll definitely read it in the end. <3
( Yes, it is :) . Did you read it? <3 )
Ah, actually it's not that I don't like happy endings. It's more like, I really don't like happy ending which are plain and vapid (wow I just learnt a new word), and as it's more difficult to make an happy ending just right, not as "ohmygodangelsareflyingandsendingloveandheartshapeeverywhereintheworld", it's often happy vapid plain ending. But yours are just so sweet and right, so I love them so much <3
I see I see. I understand. It's even more romantic and heartbreaking that way
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It's on my to-read list! Definitely need to read it at some point xD I heard that it has a lot of very good reviews.
I totally understand what you mean :) Angst, at times, is so much more interesting to read, even though it's incredibly depressing. So I have a love/hate relationship with the genre.
Yeah, but then at times, love also depends on fate and the circumstances, and in this case the circumstances didn't allow them to be together. But they'll manage to live without the other, and survive by knowing that they had a year together in love (which is, already, more than they're allowed) ^^
Haha oh nice! I wish I was good at French, but I've started to lose a lot of it already ever since I took my exam (malheureusement...) :(
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Maybe x'D I don't know.
Aaaw. Well, I watched the film, and after that I so wanted to read the book. So I'm reading it, and it's bittersweet (well I know the end after all) and really good and and and; well. I love this.
ah, one of my classmate was talking about "Delirium" this morning. funny, because I was just talking about this fic to my friend just a little earlier. ... WELL. I really want to read this now, or soon ~
Hahaha. yes I understand this relation. I kind of have this too, but I think I really love it more than I hate it ~ because, I love angst which make beautiful stories. ... and whenever I write (or want to) , it's always angst . why. am. I. always. picturing. anguish. scenarios. in. my. head.
Well, I rarely write fluff. I'm always scared to write vapid plain things.
:( ... yes maybe. but that's so sad. I just aw ;_; .
Oooh ~ French's hard actually x'D. I respect everyone who learn or learnt French ~ but if you want to speak french with someone, I'm here. lol. ( I feel like it's really a weird and creepy proposition x'D sorry. )
I'm going to write comments/reviews on your other fanfictions too ;_; Since I read them and roevjgnquingubisngsn. <3 I love your works.
But not tonight, I'm sorry. It's already late at night in France, and I have classes (early... or just well. always early) tomorrow. <3 Good night.
PS: OMO. I just found your tumblr when I was checking Kyuhyun's tag and you made a list of your fics. ... >___< I followed you, I hope you don't mind. (why does I feel like a creepy stalker, really? lol) ~
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Ah, okay. Then I'll definitely check it out :D It sounds like a very good novel :)
Haha you should! One of my friends recommended it to me, and I thought it was pretty interesting. Not your -omg it's the best book I've ever read- novels, but it's decent and interesting to kill time with.
I write a balance between fluff and angst - I guess with fluff it's hard to develop an interesting plot if both of them aren't suffering at all -.- It frustrates me at times. Angst makes up for better plot, but then it becomes all sad and bittersweet and I'm a sucker for happy endings.
Aww that's sweet of you to say that. Merci? I'm not sure when I'm going to pick French up again (if I will), but I definitely will pop by and get you to help me if I pick it up again :P It's not creepy at all, I think it's very sweet of you ^^
And it's okay, take your time (or if you really don't have time to, it's okay ^^ I understand.) I'm really touched that you love my works, it means a lot to me to know that people enjoy reading them ^^
Good luck with your classes!
Hahaha, it's okay. I post random stuff on my tumblr - fanfic, reblogging suju and some personal rants and stuff - so I hope you don't mind that ^^
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