things that pull me through
I'm really tired but can't sleep. This has been a problem this week though I thought it was resolving because I slept last night just fine. Anyway, I'm awake so thought I'd put up an update.
Monday I saw Dr. E about my depression. I had started to feel better over the weekend and had thought about not going, but had talked with G and decided that because of how bad things had gotten that I would still go talk to her. She has put me on yet another antidepressant. This makes 3. Yes 3. Hey, I'm trying to go for a record LOL. t actually hey all kinda do different things. I've been feeling better each day.
I had therapy this week. I've been read a reading a great book by Joni Earickson Tada called a lifetime of wisdom. I got it from BARD and I know its available from several other places. Its really really good. I started writing down things from it that I wanted to talk about in therapy. I decided to share them here. behind a cut since its very faith related. At least I hope this cut will work I can't quite remember how to do it LOL
here are the main points she has made.
Come to God with all your emotions. Its better to express your emotions then to turn from God.
Your emotions about God are not the reality of God. Turn to scripture for truth.
confining places can be places to build trust. Where the spirit of the Lord is there is freedom, hope, and peace.
remember the specific blessings from God. Say them out loud..
God will only give you enough grace for today.
Press on in faith and He will give you grace.
It provided great conversation for therapy. I think its really neat that God led me to start reading this book when He did. Its really pulled me through. Another thing that has pulled me through is the music of Sarah Schieber. I posted the lyrics to her song Christmas in Heaven last year and when I heard it on the radio this year I was reminded that I wanted to look her up on Mog. So I did. I won't get in to her whole story you can visit her website for that www.sarahschieber.com I will say that her album Long October Road is amazing. It is very emotional and I was so blessed. There were 2 songs that really helped me that first night in particular here are the lyrics to one of them. Couldn't find the others. Its called wishin time away.
SOME SAY TIME WILL HEAL ALL THINGS ALL THE BROKENNESS AND PAIN AND SOMEDAY ALL THESE TEARS WILL FADE INTO THE YEARS
BUT RIGHT NOW IT’S STANDING STILL AND I’M STRUGGLIN’ WITH YOUR WILL I ‘M TRYIN TO MAKE SENSE OF THIS HURT I’M LIVIN’ WITH
I’M WISHIN’ TIME AWAY LOOKIN’ FOR THE DAY WHEN YOUR HOPE BREAKS THROUGH THE SKY AND LETS ME KNOW THAT ITS OK SO I WILL HOLD ON TO YOUR LOVE AND I WILL LEAN ON WHAT YOU SAY THAT YOUR PROMISES BELONG TO THOSE WHO WAIT I’M WISHIN’ TIME AWAY
SO I GUESS I’LL HAVE TO TRUST THAT YOUR STRENGTH IS ENOUGH THAT SOMEWHERE DOWN LINE EVERYTHING WILL BE JUST FINE
I DON’T SEE IT NOW BUT YOU LET ME KNOW SOMEHOW THERE IS PURPOSE IN THE PAIN SO I’M BELIEVIN’ ON YOUR NAME AND I’M......
WISHIN’ TIME AWAY LOOKIN’ FOR THE DAY WHEN YOUR HOPE BREAKS THROUGH THE SKY AND LETS ME KNOW THAT ITS OK SO I WILL HOLD ON TO YOUR LOVE AND I WILL LEAN ON WHAT YOU SAY THAT YOUR PROMISES BELONG TO THOSE WHO WAIT I’M WISHIN’ TIME AWAY
all right gonna try for sleep again.
Monday I saw Dr. E about my depression. I had started to feel better over the weekend and had thought about not going, but had talked with G and decided that because of how bad things had gotten that I would still go talk to her. She has put me on yet another antidepressant. This makes 3. Yes 3. Hey, I'm trying to go for a record LOL. t actually hey all kinda do different things. I've been feeling better each day.
I had therapy this week. I've been read a reading a great book by Joni Earickson Tada called a lifetime of wisdom. I got it from BARD and I know its available from several other places. Its really really good. I started writing down things from it that I wanted to talk about in therapy. I decided to share them here. behind a cut since its very faith related. At least I hope this cut will work I can't quite remember how to do it LOL
here are the main points she has made.
Come to God with all your emotions. Its better to express your emotions then to turn from God.
Your emotions about God are not the reality of God. Turn to scripture for truth.
confining places can be places to build trust. Where the spirit of the Lord is there is freedom, hope, and peace.
remember the specific blessings from God. Say them out loud..
God will only give you enough grace for today.
Press on in faith and He will give you grace.
It provided great conversation for therapy. I think its really neat that God led me to start reading this book when He did. Its really pulled me through. Another thing that has pulled me through is the music of Sarah Schieber. I posted the lyrics to her song Christmas in Heaven last year and when I heard it on the radio this year I was reminded that I wanted to look her up on Mog. So I did. I won't get in to her whole story you can visit her website for that www.sarahschieber.com I will say that her album Long October Road is amazing. It is very emotional and I was so blessed. There were 2 songs that really helped me that first night in particular here are the lyrics to one of them. Couldn't find the others. Its called wishin time away.
SOME SAY TIME WILL HEAL ALL THINGS ALL THE BROKENNESS AND PAIN AND SOMEDAY ALL THESE TEARS WILL FADE INTO THE YEARS
BUT RIGHT NOW IT’S STANDING STILL AND I’M STRUGGLIN’ WITH YOUR WILL I ‘M TRYIN TO MAKE SENSE OF THIS HURT I’M LIVIN’ WITH
I’M WISHIN’ TIME AWAY LOOKIN’ FOR THE DAY WHEN YOUR HOPE BREAKS THROUGH THE SKY AND LETS ME KNOW THAT ITS OK SO I WILL HOLD ON TO YOUR LOVE AND I WILL LEAN ON WHAT YOU SAY THAT YOUR PROMISES BELONG TO THOSE WHO WAIT I’M WISHIN’ TIME AWAY
SO I GUESS I’LL HAVE TO TRUST THAT YOUR STRENGTH IS ENOUGH THAT SOMEWHERE DOWN LINE EVERYTHING WILL BE JUST FINE
I DON’T SEE IT NOW BUT YOU LET ME KNOW SOMEHOW THERE IS PURPOSE IN THE PAIN SO I’M BELIEVIN’ ON YOUR NAME AND I’M......
WISHIN’ TIME AWAY LOOKIN’ FOR THE DAY WHEN YOUR HOPE BREAKS THROUGH THE SKY AND LETS ME KNOW THAT ITS OK SO I WILL HOLD ON TO YOUR LOVE AND I WILL LEAN ON WHAT YOU SAY THAT YOUR PROMISES BELONG TO THOSE WHO WAIT I’M WISHIN’ TIME AWAY
all right gonna try for sleep again.