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today I had this feeling that I am taking this all wrong, so I looked at it from a different angle.
It helped, it really did, and I think that I helped myself if anything. :)
I just need to act normal, let this just slide off the turtle shell, not put it in the back burner persay, but instead just leave the subject be. It wont do anything to help the situation to keep bringing it up. And it wont feel any better to dwell. I think I am growing, but not grown, almost there though if I keep this up.
I feel like a million bucks right now, I dont know why, most people would just go off, like I did, and just go to the deep end. I dont need to feel like that again. So I wont.
I hope I didnt fuck up the relationships that I have with you all. Because your friendships are important to me. All of you. I guess I should just embrace this as a sign, if it is destined then it wll work, if not then well you know what will happen. I know that what I said, I cant take back so I wont try. I think that if we really are friends then all I have to do is talk to you guys and just explain.
Well, I think that I will offically become the weekend warrior. Party on at the end of the week and work my ass off the rest of it. But I need to pace myself, so I dont get bored with what ever job I do get.
Furthermore, someone has given me a new prespective, and i'd like to thank them for it.
Jimbo, dude, you are the shit, as always your words are rough but true, i needed to hear that from you. You dont know what it did to me to hear something that profound but simple all in one breath.
Josh, I thank you too, I have heeded your words, and they helped today.
Ah fuck it I'm tired of typing and I will go to the store now, pazaa for money, that doesnt go towards pot.
P.S. I hope none of you think that I am selling out, like my brother did last week when I told him the same thing.
I mean this, whole heartedly, it is for the best and I think it will bring me and guys togther more so then before.
I did use pot as a crutch to escape from the daily bullshit, and it was wrong. I almost want to kick myself for the things I have said under my breath towards the situation, one that I cant change, not now anyways.
Hugs, props and other shit
The turtle.
It helped, it really did, and I think that I helped myself if anything. :)
I just need to act normal, let this just slide off the turtle shell, not put it in the back burner persay, but instead just leave the subject be. It wont do anything to help the situation to keep bringing it up. And it wont feel any better to dwell. I think I am growing, but not grown, almost there though if I keep this up.
I feel like a million bucks right now, I dont know why, most people would just go off, like I did, and just go to the deep end. I dont need to feel like that again. So I wont.
I hope I didnt fuck up the relationships that I have with you all. Because your friendships are important to me. All of you. I guess I should just embrace this as a sign, if it is destined then it wll work, if not then well you know what will happen. I know that what I said, I cant take back so I wont try. I think that if we really are friends then all I have to do is talk to you guys and just explain.
Well, I think that I will offically become the weekend warrior. Party on at the end of the week and work my ass off the rest of it. But I need to pace myself, so I dont get bored with what ever job I do get.
Furthermore, someone has given me a new prespective, and i'd like to thank them for it.
Jimbo, dude, you are the shit, as always your words are rough but true, i needed to hear that from you. You dont know what it did to me to hear something that profound but simple all in one breath.
Josh, I thank you too, I have heeded your words, and they helped today.
Ah fuck it I'm tired of typing and I will go to the store now, pazaa for money, that doesnt go towards pot.
P.S. I hope none of you think that I am selling out, like my brother did last week when I told him the same thing.
I mean this, whole heartedly, it is for the best and I think it will bring me and guys togther more so then before.
I did use pot as a crutch to escape from the daily bullshit, and it was wrong. I almost want to kick myself for the things I have said under my breath towards the situation, one that I cant change, not now anyways.
Hugs, props and other shit
The turtle.