This is not a test people...IT'S REAL
I am going to unload now, not pissed with anyone and not homicidal or suicidal, just need to let off some steam. Here goes.
I sit here and tear out from the shit that deal with day to day. My mom sits at her throne at the bottom of gossip ravien. My dad exsisting and taking my life away. My brother for being the selfservetant bastard that he is.
I think of all the people that have tried to help me in the past.
Rocky & Katie
Josh
Kosh
Raven
Josef
Joe & Brenda
Dude I try to help people, have done for a number of years. It's a good feeling to know that someone somewhere benifited from your good deed. But WFT. I do it for unselfish reasons and get the shaft. David does it for the oppisite and gets laid like all the fucking time. My touch is gone I guess.
It wouldn't help to note that I have actually avoided bathing for almost (not consecutive mind you) a year. To see if the whole "what;s on the inside that counts" bullshit. Well it's bullshit. All the girl think your a great friend, but dont want anything to do with you. Yes I know that's a little discusting, but god damn.
I think it's disgusting that chicks only go out with the hot guys. Why cant I be like King of Queens. Like WTF, I'm charming, I got a sense of humor. mind you I have no job. But that's because I have nothing to live or work for. Sorry, it's true. I dont really count my friends into that equation.
My friends cant or wont satisfy my sexual hunger. This they aren't included. Hell, raven, bless her soul, gave me a lap dance. I knew she had to be dreding that.
women in general are evil. You know what I hate about getting into a relationship? The fact that all those feelings are there all the time. You walk around wearing your heart as a badge and can't get your SO out of yer mind. You think it goes the same for her or him depending, then they tell you so or lie depending. Then you feel all safe and secure, then IT happens. You are at the bus parking lot. Or some place there of. And you go to pull out a ring, you know to propose to her, and she crushes you right there in front of the entire school. You feel like shit and your self-esteem is like 0-to none. Then you try going out with other girls, try to play the field. This becomes a hassle, seeing as the more and more you try the less and less they like you. GODDAMNIT MAKE UP YOUR FUCKING MINDS!!!
man it just gripes my ass, everytime I think about it, I just start tearing about it. It pisses me off because I can't change it. And now I think that I'll always be alone and noone will ever be with me. Is it just me, or it is everytime I put my heart out on the line, I get shited on? I think so, because everyone I've talked to says that I look good but I'm still single.
In closing I feel that in order to understand the turtle, one must understand how he works. Well here's a crash course. I am just like anyother man, except for the whole wanting to fuck all damn night. No instead I want to fuck ALL DAY AND ALL NIGHT FOR LIKE WEEKS ON END. And dont want someone to think that's all I think about. When you haven't had good sex in like almost 3 fucking years, they tend to get a little grumpy. I dont count crystal as good sex, I dont ever remember anything and dont even get a nut, usually have to go beat off in the fucking bathroom for like a hour and then some times I end up with blue balls. Yeah I think I deserve at least a good BJ or some shit. What is this world coming to? An end if I dont get sexed in the next week or so. I swear to god I will flip if someone tells me...."sex isn't everything"....I'll eat their heart and shit out there soul I swear it. Oh and josh, you dont count, you never had it, so you dont know what you're missing, that and you'd say just to contradict me.
I would just like to say that anyone, let say this again, ANYONE tells me about jacking off, I'm going to just cry. (Now here's where it gets personal)
How's an average of at least 4 times? That good enough? NO, because if it was, then I wouldn't be thinking of it and would be consentrating on something else like getting my life back on track. But no, instead I'm in this bind.
On one hand....
Never have sex again and risk either becoming a monk, or something worse.
OR
Get sex, and my life either be better or worse depending on the emotions attached to it.
I'm damned if i do and damned if I dont.
Oh and by the way, those people that I just listed, you are exempt from ths rant I love and respect each and everyone of you, if you weren't there for me. Well, I wouldn't be here...literally.
I sit here and tear out from the shit that deal with day to day. My mom sits at her throne at the bottom of gossip ravien. My dad exsisting and taking my life away. My brother for being the selfservetant bastard that he is.
I think of all the people that have tried to help me in the past.
Rocky & Katie
Josh
Kosh
Raven
Josef
Joe & Brenda
Dude I try to help people, have done for a number of years. It's a good feeling to know that someone somewhere benifited from your good deed. But WFT. I do it for unselfish reasons and get the shaft. David does it for the oppisite and gets laid like all the fucking time. My touch is gone I guess.
It wouldn't help to note that I have actually avoided bathing for almost (not consecutive mind you) a year. To see if the whole "what;s on the inside that counts" bullshit. Well it's bullshit. All the girl think your a great friend, but dont want anything to do with you. Yes I know that's a little discusting, but god damn.
I think it's disgusting that chicks only go out with the hot guys. Why cant I be like King of Queens. Like WTF, I'm charming, I got a sense of humor. mind you I have no job. But that's because I have nothing to live or work for. Sorry, it's true. I dont really count my friends into that equation.
My friends cant or wont satisfy my sexual hunger. This they aren't included. Hell, raven, bless her soul, gave me a lap dance. I knew she had to be dreding that.
women in general are evil. You know what I hate about getting into a relationship? The fact that all those feelings are there all the time. You walk around wearing your heart as a badge and can't get your SO out of yer mind. You think it goes the same for her or him depending, then they tell you so or lie depending. Then you feel all safe and secure, then IT happens. You are at the bus parking lot. Or some place there of. And you go to pull out a ring, you know to propose to her, and she crushes you right there in front of the entire school. You feel like shit and your self-esteem is like 0-to none. Then you try going out with other girls, try to play the field. This becomes a hassle, seeing as the more and more you try the less and less they like you. GODDAMNIT MAKE UP YOUR FUCKING MINDS!!!
man it just gripes my ass, everytime I think about it, I just start tearing about it. It pisses me off because I can't change it. And now I think that I'll always be alone and noone will ever be with me. Is it just me, or it is everytime I put my heart out on the line, I get shited on? I think so, because everyone I've talked to says that I look good but I'm still single.
In closing I feel that in order to understand the turtle, one must understand how he works. Well here's a crash course. I am just like anyother man, except for the whole wanting to fuck all damn night. No instead I want to fuck ALL DAY AND ALL NIGHT FOR LIKE WEEKS ON END. And dont want someone to think that's all I think about. When you haven't had good sex in like almost 3 fucking years, they tend to get a little grumpy. I dont count crystal as good sex, I dont ever remember anything and dont even get a nut, usually have to go beat off in the fucking bathroom for like a hour and then some times I end up with blue balls. Yeah I think I deserve at least a good BJ or some shit. What is this world coming to? An end if I dont get sexed in the next week or so. I swear to god I will flip if someone tells me...."sex isn't everything"....I'll eat their heart and shit out there soul I swear it. Oh and josh, you dont count, you never had it, so you dont know what you're missing, that and you'd say just to contradict me.
I would just like to say that anyone, let say this again, ANYONE tells me about jacking off, I'm going to just cry. (Now here's where it gets personal)
How's an average of at least 4 times? That good enough? NO, because if it was, then I wouldn't be thinking of it and would be consentrating on something else like getting my life back on track. But no, instead I'm in this bind.
On one hand....
Never have sex again and risk either becoming a monk, or something worse.
OR
Get sex, and my life either be better or worse depending on the emotions attached to it.
I'm damned if i do and damned if I dont.
Oh and by the way, those people that I just listed, you are exempt from ths rant I love and respect each and everyone of you, if you weren't there for me. Well, I wouldn't be here...literally.