The last couple of weeks....
I suppose that is time for this to happen. I need to write, since I haven't for a while. I haven't had the time, or for that matter really the need to do so. Things for the most part over the last couple of weeks have been pretty good. Classes have been stressful, but I guess that is to be expected to a certain extent, but at the same time I think that for this semester i really need to live by the philosophy of "What doesn't kill you makes you stronger" normally i wouldn't ever think to use that to describe a second portion of my life, but it really works for this one. The first part of that being when Molly and I broke up, it really hurt, but I kept on pushing through (trying not to let it get me down), the the fact of having to change my schedule to have a South Sandwich (North Campus, South Campus, North Campus back to back to back) which fucking sucks. The third and final part being that i lost a person whom i thought i would be able to count on as a friend, i guess I was wrong, all because I make a decision for myself and not her. I hate that this is what it came down to, and it hurts that this is how our relationship really ends. I guess everything in life happens for a reason, and you just have to make the best of every situation that gets thrown at you. In a sense from where I am, Molly and I being friends wasn't really working out very well anyway. We were still fighting all the time, and still over nothing. As much as i hate the situation, I can't help but wonder if maybe it is for the best that this happens...
The worst part of it all is not just that I have lost her, but more that she only seemed to want me back after she found out that i have found somebody else who makes me happy. I feel as though this wouldn't have happened when it did if Nicole had not been in the picture. However, I cannot disregard all the advice that I have gotten from the people closest to me in life, that I really can't be trying to please Molly anymore. Despite the fact that it hasn't been that long since we broke up, I am doing what I think is right and making the choice for me, not her. The circumstances are what they are and we will both have to deal with them accordingly.
Well I think that this is really all that I have to say for right now...until next time
The worst part of it all is not just that I have lost her, but more that she only seemed to want me back after she found out that i have found somebody else who makes me happy. I feel as though this wouldn't have happened when it did if Nicole had not been in the picture. However, I cannot disregard all the advice that I have gotten from the people closest to me in life, that I really can't be trying to please Molly anymore. Despite the fact that it hasn't been that long since we broke up, I am doing what I think is right and making the choice for me, not her. The circumstances are what they are and we will both have to deal with them accordingly.
Well I think that this is really all that I have to say for right now...until next time