happy birthday mom!!!
yay its my moms birthday. lets start off by telling everyone that i hate my mom right now cause shes a fucking bitch. so happy birthday mom! I started my lovely day off with working where i was in a horrible mood. My dad had asked me if I wanted him to pick up a gift for my mom from me. I didn't know what to say cause i really hate that bitch right now. So long story short, I asked him to get her this gift certificate to a spa. So, he got it, I wrote a really nice card for her. It wasn't anything special it just said "dear mom, have the best birthday ever love terrie" It didn't say anything like "thank you so much for being my mom" or any of that bullshit cause I wasn't feeling that way at the time. I was actual;ly thinking about writing "Dear mom have a great birthday you asswipe love terrie" but i skipped that part. anyway i made it all pretty. Then...ok back to the story...I went to work. It sucked. My wisdom teeth are coming in it hurts a lot. Then my mom picked me up at 7 from work. Then I gave her my present in the car and she cried cause she said it was the best birthday she ever had. (cause the kids got her nice things too...) Then we went home to more insanity cause everyone was yelling. My mom gave all the kids one of their presents for christmas already cause she gave chrissy her boots. Oh, another thing I fuckin hate about going over there is tha when the kids get home from sleeping over she says "i missed you guys so much." "Chrissy I couldn't sleep last night because i missed you so much" "i love you guys i missed you!!!" so fuckin emphatically. but no, did she dare to say i miss you to her daughter who had not been there for hmm...let's say about....4 months!!! anyway fuck her. so.......um....yeah so yeah the insanity...then i hung out with the kids...then me n chrissy watched shrek. i was helping my mom out. i made kevin macs n cheese. i was asking her if she wanted me to do the dishes so she could lie down. I asked her if there was anything i could do to help her. then we just chilled then my mom brought up my dad as usual. She asked me to tell him "thank you for taking the kids to get birthday presents for me(her)" i asked her why she couldn't tell him herself and she went on about how she has an order of protection administered by the court and she can't talk to him. and i was like "your the one who made the order of protection! if you want to say thank you to him then say thank you to him!!!" then she was like "this conversation is over" then im like "why do u have to be such an asshole" then shes like, "why don't you tell your father that!? im going to tell him what u just called me" then im like "mom how come you can talk to him when you want to tell him the bad things i said and you can't say thank you to him? Can you talk to him or can't you?" and we ended up fighting. then later she started bitching about how i should go home because thats where i belong. She told me that if i curse at her I'm not welcome in her home. I told her she shouldn't curse at me if she didn't want me to curse at her. Cause she said she can curse in her own home but i can't curse there. ok whatever ho. Then she told me to pack up the rest of my stuff and get my drums out of there. She yelled at me about how my dad forgot to pay the cable bill. I started bringing my drums downstairs and then she came into my room and was yelling at me about my sweet 16. she was yelling at me saying that the only reason i moved into my dads house is so that i could be alone whenever i wanted to, i can get what i want when i want it. Then she yelled at me about how my dad spent $3000 on my sweet 16 so that i could be happy and shes like "yeah sure go live with your father its just a dress, a $3000 sweet 16, a drumset, a new cell phone...whatever you want" i really can't stand her. Then she started getting kevin into it. she asked kevin about "the day dad came and banmged on the door with a bamboo stick" Kevin agreed with my mom when she said "Kevin, did your dad come to the house that morning and bang on the door with a bamboo stick?" kevin said "yeah" then my mom asked him "was daddy cursing at mommy" and he said "yeah" then i was like "shut up mom" then kevin said "shut up terrie dads off screwing christine! you can't yell at mom" then i just had it. she yelled at me and said that my dad "left me alone at home for 5 days by myself and did not make any arrangements" for me to be somewhere which he did. And she yelled at me about how my dad doesn't have to go to florida to support his family. I don't exactly recall everything that she said but i remember what an asshole she was being. So I got my stuff outside. Then my dad got there and i got my stuff in the car. he told me we didn't have enough room at the house for all my drums. so i packed the small ones in the car. my mom was being such a stubborn asshole. she put on her fake attitude. i remember i told her that shes fake with people and i think shes dishonest sometime in the conversation. grrrrrrr....so i left their i love my sister and brothers. i said bye to them and told them that i loved them. my mom told me not to come back there. so maybe i won't. I get sad every time im there cause i never really wanted to leave, only for these reasons...i love my family and my room and my house i love it. I needed to think of what's better for me and even though i love those things i had to give them up so that i can be sane. no person can be sane in that house. i should be able to be a teenager and to relax on occasion. I should be able to have some time to myself. I should be able to do my homework. Im doing so well in school this year. Well i think im done for now more sometime soon! Cause i miss writing in my journal. this feels really good.