people these days
hey. The past month of my life has sucked...mainly of one thing but of a few more things. I haven't been able to see my dad for over a month. its hurt me so bad. Last thursday, i snuck out of the house to go to court to see him. It was good planning but the plan failed. I woke up too late, the court date was postponed, my mom saw me there. My dads lawyer is going to get me a court order to be there in 5 days. So I'm going to HAVE to be there or else...idk but i HAVE to be there. So thats good. I miss my dad so much. Hes so great. I realized there are many jealous people out there. There are many obnoxious people out there. I always want to believe that there is something good in people. I believe there is something good in everyone. Call me dilusional but i believe that. I hate to see the bad in people. My mother and brother ganged up on me one day. They made me feel so bad. I felt like Cinderella and they were the evil stepmother and evil stepsister. They were both jealous of the love m father has for me. What am I supposed to do?! Deny his love? Just because.....ugh I don't understand this. My parents are getting divorced...my mom still has attached feelings. She still loves my dad i presume. My brother "hates" my dad. So they're both yelling things at me. They were in my face. It hurt so bad. My mother is screaming in my face and what she is saying is "Get out of myface" I don't say anything. I'm not screaming, yelling...just absorbing this hatred. My mom took my microphone and reciever away from me. and i said "i paid money for that and it belongs to me so give it back!" and she said "oh 'she paid money' " whered she get that money from her FATHER" and im like "no i got it for my sweet 16?!" and shes like "OOOOOOOH terrie got it from her SWEET SIXTEEEEEN....how nice!!" and then my brother was like "oh what else do u want?! you're gonna go ask dad for anything else?! first you want a sweet 16, a dress, anything else!?!!!" wow i don't even know what to say about that. That hurts so bad. I don't know whatr else it could be. I guess my brother wants love from my dad like i get love from my dad. and my mom is jealous that my dad gives me things and loves me cause he doesnt love her anymore. but when they're both calling me crazy. they're screaming that at me. wow its not right at all. my mom has steve brainwashed. anyway i needed to write that. so on top of not seeing my dad, thats bad enough......ok well anyway i went on a cruise wow that was horrible jk
kevin yim qwent to california and i missed him and i missed his going away surprise party. but i got him something really good lol. so ummm yea i really missed him. i feel like i've known him forever. i only met him this year. and our friendship is growing really strong. i love that kid. hes so special.
p.s. i love the spiderman soundtrack
i was thinking of going to see the broadway concert typed thing at bryant park in the city it sounds so cool. they also have this movie under the stars thing. it should be exciting www.bryantpark.org
p.s sara slept over last night we had an AMAZING night in my bed need i say more......no im straight.....need i say more again!? ok no
ttyl im gonna go sleep over jess' house
kevin yim qwent to california and i missed him and i missed his going away surprise party. but i got him something really good lol. so ummm yea i really missed him. i feel like i've known him forever. i only met him this year. and our friendship is growing really strong. i love that kid. hes so special.
p.s. i love the spiderman soundtrack
i was thinking of going to see the broadway concert typed thing at bryant park in the city it sounds so cool. they also have this movie under the stars thing. it should be exciting www.bryantpark.org
p.s sara slept over last night we had an AMAZING night in my bed need i say more......no im straight.....need i say more again!? ok no
ttyl im gonna go sleep over jess' house