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[turquoiseflea]

I'm home. I don't know how to feel about anything. I don't know what to do. I'm happy. I look outside and see mountain ranges and rolling hills and cypress trees dangling their raggedy beauty and fog, and it's all waiting for me to go running and walking and dreaming on. This will always be my home. I just wish it were possible to have both worlds

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[healthnut22]

Your parents put good values in you for smalltown rural appreciation and a life that isn't 100% the norm. Don't throw that away, but instead see how you can integrate it with what you want to do in the world. If what you want to do is share some of that joy in the simpler life with a slightly wider world, that sounds great, but I've found that before you can do your mission, you have to be really familiar with what your main mission point is; in other words, you'd have to maybe spend more time around Pt. Arena to really hone your ideas as an adult, and not just with the rosy glasses of your youth spent there. Maybe Pt. Arena is a good place for you to CONSCIOUSLY stay or hang around, to observe it and know what it is about it that you never want to lose or sacrifice to some other kind of value system that other people push on you.

All that said, check with your parents. It's not good to piss off parents by staying too long for "your values." Sometimes parents don't like that. But you never know- maybe you could even stay around Point Arena by your own means. Get your own appartment or something to show your own new commitment to something that has served you well. But otherwise, you know my thoughts on staying at home longer. ;) I'm not adverse to it. :) You just have to make sure yo udo it carefully, and make your choices for a reason.

Wow, I'm being really tell-you-what-to-do here tonight, but I hope you understand each sentance is just my opinion and I mean it all to be open suggestion and thoughts.

RH

[turquoiseflea]

That 2nd second is brilliant, Rachel. Thanks. When I read that it was like -- BONG -- yeah! Totally!

When I think about it, growing up here has above all given me a love of nature and a strong will to defend it. For the past few months I've been wishing so badly for a position in some kind of environmental agency, whether it's talking to people about recycling in Africa or working with kids or doing paperwork. I can't think of anything else that I'm quite as passionate about and have the most undying energy for -- helping the environment.

Do you think Huntington is a good/right place for you? Do you see yourself staying there for awhile?

[healthnut22]

I'll stay here until I finish college, which could be as little as two more years with a little degree and cramming, or 3 more years. And I love Indiana and have always wanted to live in Fort Wayne (in part tp study dance there at the university). I love the Midwest. But I also love the South.

And given all those things, no, I have never really thought I would stay in Huntington per se, though it is my home in the sense that that's where I "grew up" for the most part, and I have a lot of connections and people who watched me grow up around here. I would come back a lot. But certainly never intend to spend my entire career here. I don't think I could do that.

So yeah.... ~~