So Many Emotions
It is strange to be feeling such a wide range of strong emotions so close together. Regret, appreciation, sorrow, relief for the end of her suffering, contemplation over her life and how it went and understanding it with a deeper appreciation as I am aging, young though I am.. understanding my own behavior a bit better as time goes by, my mind opening up to my own self as a child that led to my choices and behavior that my mother and I didn't recognize at the time.... it is all fascinating, yet clouds my mind with a fog of associated sorrow. It is hard to be learn these things, yet I find my heart telling it is necessary for my understanding and growth.