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[turntheradioup]

i haven't slept in over 36 hours i miss her and it's my fault. i've still been avoiding everyone including my brothers. i ran into ike on the bus the other night and it looked like he wanted to kill me so i kept my head down and kept walking to my bunk so i think it's safe to say i must be the most hated guy around here for good reason and i guess i'm to blame so remind me why i'm bitching

i know i have a lot of explaining to do to everyone especially jess and amy. i really want to sort all this out right now. but i know i have to give it time. i owe jess that much. we spoke tonight and that was a good first step at least i hope it was a step. i still have to sort things out with amy because she left abruptly too but i think the most important thing to me right now is getting jess' trust back so yeah.

i'm gonna go sleep now or whatever my head is pounding and i've been neglecting it for a while.



i wish you would've grabbed the gun
and shot me 'cause i died
and i'm nothing now without you
yeah, i'm less than nothing now

i'm the one between the bars and lost forever now
'cause it's over now

it's harder now that it's over
it's harder now that it's over
now that the cuffs are off
and you're free
you're free with a history

free with a history
you're free
free with a history

i'm sorry