Title: Control
Author: Katie
Pairings: Jack Barakat/ OC, Alex Gaskarth/OC
Rating: NC-17
Summary: Recovering from an eating disorder is not easy. Recovering from one while on tour is even harder.
Disclaimer: I don't own Jack, Alex, or anyone in the lovely band and crew that make up All Time Low. They all own each other. Sunny and I do own all members of Hyperinflated Illuminations. Thank you.
Warnings: Obsessive compulsive disorder, eating disorders, alcoholism
http://turnthepageover.livejournal.com/74156.html “Keep Danny the fuck away from me,” Alex told his tour manager, hearing coughing starting up once again back in the bunk area. “He sounds contagious.”
“There’s not many places for me to quarantine him on a tour bus, Alex,” Matt answered, typing something up on his laptop.
“As long as he doesn’t make me sick,” Alex answered, taking a sip of the beer in his hand.
He heard the door open, glancing over to see Jack and Wyatt walking inside.
“Hey guys,” he said, seeing them turn their heads to look at him.
“Hey, Lex,” Jack answered, leading Wyatt into the kitchen area.
“Hello, Alex,” Wyatt greeted him, taking the box of granola bars Jack was handing him.
“How’s Vina doing?” he asked, seeing Wyatt shrug his shoulders just a tiny bit.
“She’s pissed at me, but she’s eating again,” Wyatt answered, eyes automatically going to the closed bunk door as Danny started coughing again. “What is that?”
“Danny,” Alex answered. “He’s not feeling too hot today.”
“Oh, I forgot to tell you guys, we have a hotel the next two nights and a day off tomorrow,” Matt said.
“Sweet,” Jack said, walking over to the couch opposite the other two men. He pulled his boyfriend down in his lap, nuzzling his face into Wyatt’s shoulder blade.
“I’m gonna take these over to Vina,” Wyatt said, cringing as he heard Danny’s coughing start up again. “Do you wanna come with me?”
“Nah, I’m gonna hang out here for a little bit,” Jack told him, unwrapping his arms from around the boy and standing up with him, “but I’ll walk you out.”
Wyatt walked out of the bus ahead of him, turning to Jack as he heard the door shut. Jack grabbed a hold of his hand, pulling him closer and giving him a gentle kiss.
“I’m gonna go to the store,” Jack mumbled, cupping Wyatt’s cheek as he pressed their noses together, “and get everything we need. But first, you need to tell me you’re sure about this.”
Wyatt bit his lip, looking down at his feet before reconnecting eye contact with Jack and nodding.
“I won’t be mad if you say no,” Jack told him. “I want you to be 100% with me right now, babe.”
“I’m sure,” Wyatt said, nodding his head again.
Jack didn’t say anything for a moment, looking into Wyatt’s eyes to make sure he wasn’t lying to him. He nodded his head after a minute, pulling Wyatt in for a kiss and smiling at him.
“Is there anything special that you need? Or well, want?” Jack asked and Wyatt shrugged.
“I don’t know. You know more about this than I do,” Wyatt murmured, blushing slightly and making Jack grin.
“Alright. I’ll just bring my hot bod then,” Jack winked. “And condoms and lube.”
Wyatt’s cheeks flared a deeper shade of red and Jack laughed, pressing their lips together again.
“I’ll call you later, okay? I love you,” Jack told him, running his thumb over his cheek.
“I love you too,” Wyatt answered.
“And don’t spend all day freaking out. It’s gonna be fine, and believe it or not you’ll love it,” Jack said with a wink, smirking as his boyfriend flushed. “I promise. If you don’t love sex with me, you can punch me in the balls.”
“But that would hurt,” Wyatt said, his eyes widening and Jack laughed.
“It would hurt my ego more,” Jack told him, “knowing that I didn’t make you feel good. I’d rather take the punch in the balls.”
“But what if I don’t like it?” Wyatt questioned. “I don’t want to hurt your ego. Or your balls.”
“Oh, I know you’ll like it, so I’m really not all that worried,” Jack answered. “Trust me.”
“But what if I don’t?”
Jack smirked, grabbing Wyatt by the collar of his shirt and shoving him up against the bus. He wound the fingers of one hand through his flawlessly styled hair, pulling on the brown locks as he smashed their lips together. Wyatt squeaked in surprise, feeling Jack’s other hand curl around his hip as he shoved his tongue past his lips. Jack drank down the little mewls his boyfriend let out, feeling his shaky hands meet at the back of his neck due to lack of knowledge of where to put them. Jack smirked into the kiss, pulling back slightly and catching Wyatt’s bottom lip between his teeth and rolling the skin gently before delving his tongue back into the moist caverns of his mouth. Wyatt whined, involuntarily arching his back into Jack as the older boy ran a hand down his chest.
“Yeah, I know you’ll enjoy,” Jack said, smirking as he ran his index finger down to the front of Wyatt’s pants before pulling away. “Now go take Vina her granola bars.”
“J-Jack!” Wyatt said, staring at his boyfriend as he moved to walk back onto his bus.
“What?” Jack asked, laughing at the lost expression on his boyfriend’s face.
“I-I-You- I don’t-”
“That’s all you get for right now, babe,” Jack answered, giggling. “Go take a cold shower.”
He opened the door, going inside and leaving the younger male still standing against his bus.
“Lexy!” Jack called out as he moved towards him, plopping down on his lap without warning.
“Ow, bro. If you wanna sit on my cock at least make it good for me too,” he said, wincing and adjusting Jack in his lap.
“Let’s go exploring!” Jack said, bouncing excitedly and grabbing Alex’s face.
“Seriously, dude. I’m sexually frustrated. You can’t be bouncing on me like this, it sucks,” Alex said, pushing the taller man off of his lap.
“Well this guy’s getting some tonight, so get your fat ass off this couch and come get sexy with me!” Jack exclaimed, standing up and pulling on Alex’s hands.
“Asshole. I’m already sexy. Take someone else who needs help getting pussy,” Alex said, trying to yank his hands away from him. “Take Zack.”
“You and I both know Zack has no problems getting the pussy,” Jack answered, rolling his eyes. “Now come on! I want you!”
“Take Matt! He needs some pussy in his life,” Alex answered and Jack rolled his eyes again.
“I’m not even sure Matt likes the pussy in his life. He probably wants the D,” Jack said, continuing to pull on Alex.
“Then you guys can bond over your fondness of cock,” Alex answered, giggling and feeling himself starting to be pulled to his feet.
“I am right fucking here, you dickheads!” Matt said, frowning up at his two friends. “And for your information, Barakat, I do like the pussy.”
“Then I’ll buy you a cat. Alex, come onnn,” Jack whined at his best friend, who was too busy laughing.
“Ugh, fuck off. I’m coming,” Alex answered, standing up and running his hands through his hair. “Just let me go get my wallet.”
***
“Why the fuck do you keep trying to hold my hand? I don’t want to hold your fucking hand, you freak!” Alex exclaimed, yanking his hand away from Jack’s skinny fingers for what felt like the millionth time as he laughed.
“I’m so excited, Lex!” Jack exclaimed, wrapping his arms around him from the side and almost sending him to the ground. Alex let out a huff, shoving him off of him and laughing.
“I feel like I’m helping you lose your virginity all over again,” Alex said with a chuckle, pulling his hand away from Jack. “Stop!”
“I feel like I’m losing my virginity all over again!”
“Well, hopefully you get a boner this time,” Alex said with a smirk and Jack rolled his eyes.
“No worries there,” Jack answered with a smirk of his own.
“Hey, Jack,” a soft voice came from behind them, and the two males turned to see Vina standing a few feet away.
“Hey,” the aforementioned boy answered, smiling gently at her. “What’s up?”
“I was just wondering if you knew where Wyatt was,” the girl asked, adjusting the messy bun her hair was pulled back in and yawning.
“Um, I’m not sure. He’s not on the bus?” Jack asked, fighting back the smirk that was threatening to form on his face.
“I’m not sure. I haven’t been there yet. Usually he’s with you, but obviously he’s not right now, so I just assumed you knew where he would be,” Vina said, shrugging.
“Oh. Yeah, Alex and I are heading out to do some shopping and stuff so I’m not exactly sure where he went off to. He’s probably cleaning,” Jack said with a small laugh.
“Sounds like Wyatt,” Vina said, smiling gently and not giving any acknowledgment that Jack had mentioned Alex’s name.
The oldest male bit the inside of his cheek, looking the petite girl over. She looked so frail, yet so beautiful at the same time. Alex just wanted to sweep her up in his arms and protect her. To take her far away from a world that made her feel like she wasn’t good enough and go where he could show her she was perfect. But she would never go for that; she wasn’t the damsel type, and he was far too fucked up himself to be her Prince Charming.
“Hey, Vina,” he said, noticing the way she turned her head in the opposite direction from him, glancing out over the skyline. “How are you feeling?”
“Anyway,” she said, looking back to Jack and acting as if she hadn’t heard Alex speak at all, “I’m gonna head over to my bus to see if Wyatt’s there. Have fun today.”
“Are you serious?” Alex asked, stepping closer and resisting the urge to reach out and grab her arm. It was so blatantly obvious she was ignoring him.
“Um, yeah,” Jack said, looking to his best friend in discomfort. It was a bit of an awkward situation for him.
“I’ll talk to you later, Jack,” Vina said with a wave before walking away.
Alex grit his teeth as he watched her walk away, moving in the direction opposite she has left.
“Fucking bitch,” Alex muttered under his breath. “I should have let her smack her face on the pavement. Where the fuck does she get off treating me like dirt? She could be in a real fucked up situation if I hadn’t been there for her.”
“Bro,” Jack said, shaking his head. “That was uncomfortable as fuck.”
“It’s her!” Alex exclaimed. “She’s just such a bitch!”
****
“You think he’s gonna like it?” Jack asked, running his fingers through his freshly dyed hair.
“Hmm, do I think you boyfriend, who is freaked out by change and is already freaking out at the thought of you taking his virginity tonight, is gonna like your completely unannounced hairstyle change?” Alex questioned, raising an eyebrow.
“Why are you such a douchebag?” Jack asked with a frown and Alex laughed.
“I’m just messing with you, bro. I think it looks awesome. And Wyatt loves you, so I’m pretty sure what your hair looks like isn’t gonna change how he feels about you.”
“But I want him to like it!” Jack groaned, elbowing the older male in the side.
“Bro, he’s not gonna be able to keep his fucking hands off of you,” Alex answered, smacking Jack’s ass for effect.
“That’s much better,” Jack answered, smirking as he ran his hands through the blonde half of it. “And you, my friend, look equally as fuckable. Wait until Vina gets a load of you.”
Alex rolled his eyes, scrunching his fingers through his also freshly dyed hair.
“Fuck her. I don’t need another bitch in my life,” the male answered, toying with the bright pink strands of his fringe. “I don’t need commitment to get my dick wet, dude.”
“I guess not,” Jack said, shrugging. He knew the older boy didn’t mean a word he was saying about the girl.
“So where are we off to next?” Alex questioned.
“Um, probably like Walmart or something,” Jack answered. “Don’t really have to go anywhere too fancy for condoms.”
“You want a cock ring?” Alex asked, smirking as he took it off the rack and tried to put it in the basket Jack was carrying.
“No!” Jack exclaimed, taking it out of the basket and hooking it back on the display hook. “It’s his first time. Let’s not freak him out with some weird kink shit.”
“So no vibrators either?” Alex asked with a smirk, seeing Jack roll his eyes.
“No,” Jack answered.
“But what if you can’t finish the job? You don’t wanna leave him hanging on the first time, do you?” Alex asked with a smirk.
“Shut the fuck up before I choke you with one of those vibrators,” Jack said with a glare, causing the older male to laugh.
“Chill out. I’m just kidding,” Alex answered, laughing. He watched Jack pick up a box of condoms and throw them in the basket, shrugging and picking himself up a box too.
“Big plans, Alexander?” Jack asked with a raised eyebrow.
“Better to be safe than sorry, right?” Alex answered, raising his eyebrow in return.
“Right,” Jack answered, grabbing a box of lube.
The men walked towards the checkout counters, and Alex made a face as he glanced over at the basket in Jack’s hand.
“This looks so incredibly gay,” he said, laughing and snatching his own condoms out of the basket. “I’m going to a different register than you.”
“Oh, you don’t wanna buy condoms with me?” Jack asked, raising an eyebrow. “Alex!”
He ignored his best friend’s obnoxious yelling, walking a few aisles down to another register.
“Pussy,” Jack muttered as they met up at the door. Alex laughed, holding the bag in his hand and swinging it slightly.