domestic displeasure.
i've never been wild but i have become so domestic since dating john.
i find that i love helping him clean his house, cooking, and doing anything for him at the drop of a hat.
but it's also fucking annoying because i know why i'm acting this way and i know how automatic this behavior is for me in any relationship. i'm constantly afraid that any day now he's going to pull me aside and tell me he wants to take things down a notch and just be friends. i'm just trying to make myself feel better so he might want to keep me around and continue dating me because i'm useful at best.
but hopefully things won't go down hill for a few more months.
i'm making myself crazy!