Look right through me.
today wasnt a terrible day.. ive had worse. i am incredibly happy shayna is back. i had fun with her for a while and then i just got a bad feeling .. i just dont feel like im good enough for her like she needs something more than a peaceful musician. who is feminine. Im trying to improve myself for her. Im have jealous feelings ...
and an unhealthy fear of losing her. though i have gained almost complete controll of my emotions ...i cannot controll...love.jealousy. or sadness. i just want to be perfect for her and i know im not and will never be. everytime i try something new..she gets used to it and expects it. (this may explain why othergirls like me and shayna is just used to what andrew calls "my charm") My Inner quarrel is ..Do I change and try finding more ways to catch her eye. or Do i improve upon what is already there. im just being stupid
and an unhealthy fear of losing her. though i have gained almost complete controll of my emotions ...i cannot controll...love.jealousy. or sadness. i just want to be perfect for her and i know im not and will never be. everytime i try something new..she gets used to it and expects it. (this may explain why othergirls like me and shayna is just used to what andrew calls "my charm") My Inner quarrel is ..Do I change and try finding more ways to catch her eye. or Do i improve upon what is already there. im just being stupid