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[turnkeep]

Today I realized that compared to some of my friends who have actually met, loved and have been loved by (in whatever way) people that they idolize, or people they genuinely cared about, I will never be that close to the people I love most of all, and am currently in love with someone who I don't even think likes me the same way.

I cried.

Why I am jealous of other peoples' relationships compared to mine, I have no idea. It still makes me feel like complete and utter crap though.