sadness
i hate school so much. actually i hate my major. it doesn't matter how much i study i feel like still i don't grasp the concepts good enough. and to make everything worse i am surrounded by people who understand and care about the material, people who are motivated, people who have a chance at graduate school. i am barely going to graduate. that is so sad to admit, but it is true. and i have no one to blame but myself. i could have chosen something else to study. i could have done a million things differently, but this is my reality. I am about to barely graduate and i have a lame job and the future looks extremely bleak. I feel like the last four years of college have been a waste of time and money. You can't even do anything with a math degree....except teach, but i don't even have my teaching certificate and i don't want to teach i don't think.
Agh that was so negative, but I had to get it out. I am sure things will get better and I hope eventually I will find a real job so that I can FINALLY move out.
At least i am healthy and have some good friends and a good family. and at least i didn't quit even though i have wanted to a million times. and at least i have good hair. and at least at my job they give me free bras and panties, my two favorite things ever. and at least i have a job and a car. and a sexy guy who is just what i want.
Agh that was so negative, but I had to get it out. I am sure things will get better and I hope eventually I will find a real job so that I can FINALLY move out.
At least i am healthy and have some good friends and a good family. and at least i didn't quit even though i have wanted to a million times. and at least i have good hair. and at least at my job they give me free bras and panties, my two favorite things ever. and at least i have a job and a car. and a sexy guy who is just what i want.