Red suitcase full of clothes
Life is so overwhelming sometimes. Not really while you`re living it, but moreso when you stop to look at it. I guess this is one of those moments. The ones when you stop and realize that no matter how slow you choose to move or how much you procrastinate, you`re still in a whirlwind. Sometimes despite how comfortable and happy i am in life right now, i so badly miss my life as it was two years ago. Staying up all night with twig watching cops... dancing all night smoking endless packs of cigarettes at the imperial... constantly quoting amchorman with leah... when i still had that naivete. Back when i still thought everything was simple and everyone was basically honest. its so sad that i don`t have that anymore. i miss hopelessy loving someone. the way you do when you havent lived with them yet. the way you do before they take you for all you`ve got. i miss staying out all night with james siboni. and talking to gacy for hours. my life is nothing like it was. sometimes im thankful for that. sometimes i miss it more than anything. but. i won my lawsuit. im buying myself some nice things. im in love. and im going to new york in less than a month. what else really matters? ive got love, friends and memories.