i was difficult to see but you picked me
i miss writing. so strange, but it's finally happening. and this little blog is a cute thing, but it's not cutting it.
i felt inspired a couple weeks ago and even wrote some poems. but i miss the deeper stuff. oddly enough i've been itching to write something of substance, and that's not to say that my poetry doesn't have substance. for me, poetry was always a word game. i loved to write stuff that made language a game, fun to read, fun to say. but for the most part it was the blubbery languid, love-lost crap. yep, crap. mostly about a boy.
i am craving intense testimonial. or insightful literary criticism. i am hopelessly weird. mostly i want to write about God. my experience with God. i feel like i haven't been talking about it at all lately, and it bothers me. the most important aspect of my life and i don't even use my talent to express it. but i still haven't figured out what my spiritual gift is. i used to believe that my sole purpose in this world was to bring my parents together, which i successfully accomplished as a fetus.
so for the majority of my young life, i believed that my life had no other purpose. i guess the most appropriate word to describe me right now would be aimless.
i felt inspired a couple weeks ago and even wrote some poems. but i miss the deeper stuff. oddly enough i've been itching to write something of substance, and that's not to say that my poetry doesn't have substance. for me, poetry was always a word game. i loved to write stuff that made language a game, fun to read, fun to say. but for the most part it was the blubbery languid, love-lost crap. yep, crap. mostly about a boy.
i am craving intense testimonial. or insightful literary criticism. i am hopelessly weird. mostly i want to write about God. my experience with God. i feel like i haven't been talking about it at all lately, and it bothers me. the most important aspect of my life and i don't even use my talent to express it. but i still haven't figured out what my spiritual gift is. i used to believe that my sole purpose in this world was to bring my parents together, which i successfully accomplished as a fetus.
so for the majority of my young life, i believed that my life had no other purpose. i guess the most appropriate word to describe me right now would be aimless.