my mind
My mind is just I dunno. I think on my birthday I am going to go to church. I mean everyone is working or busy anyway so whats the point. Me and savvy had this awful fight the other night. I mean I was playing my piano and she was cleaning the room. and she thought I was ignoring her the whole entire time. but in reality I wasn't I was just so focused on my piano, because I am reteaching myself to play. So while i was studing my music, she split the bed up and left a note saying she didn't want to sleep with me tonight I was heart broken. so i left it was around mid night and I just sat outside and cried for hours then I met up with my friend amber and was just zombiefied and hung out with her and kristen for a little bit. I came home around four thirty and took a bath cus it was cold outside and I was just wearing summer clothes.then fell asleep in the hallway. when i woke up the next morning I made her breakfast and we talked it out. making promises to communicate better and things have been better. It's too bad she has to work on my birthday. even though she said it was her fiance's bday and she already had plans. but they still fucked it up. whatever. soooooo....yeah ..my mind wants to praise to god. just sing my heart out forever. even though it just doesn't fit everyone else's thought of mind it does mine. maybe I need god to feel whole again because I still feel like somethings missing. ... :( its so hard to keep promises not to hurt my self when that's all I wantto do.....just a little cut.....it wont hurt anybody. I hope.....My sister lost her baby. and I am really sad about it. poor lucas. I know she would've been a great mother. I hope she can survive. life. have a good weekend. :)
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