Dear Journal...
I am happy with my life, I wonder is everyone else? I no longer think of how to end my life, but how to begin it. How to bloom, how to start new every single day. I have all of these dreams that I hope will one day be accomplished before my death. My goals in life are no longer to do manic things such as: bungee jumping, sky diving (hence my name), doing thee impossible. Now they are much bigger than I ever thought they could ever be.
MY GOALS FOR 2007
1. Go to school, renew my education. Teach myself that I can actually do something with my life.
2. To make my home, feel more like home.
3. To not live pay check to pay check, to be able to save money and not have my mother pay my phone bill because I am to broke to do so. To not have my wonderful lover, not have to pay my share of the rent, because I cannot do so. ( typically in these sorts of situations I feel that I am screwed and am afraid and try to off myself. But I believe I have more faith than that. I am thankful, for her help. But I feel extremely guilty, because I should be able to pay my own rent. But Something is wrong with my body and I was not able to work for almost two weeks. Therefore this time off has given me a few things to think about, to do something about it.)
4.To take better care of myself.
5.To find a job that will take me somewhere. An internship.
6.To keep my bedroom clean for more than two days.
7.To grow up...
8.To keep strong, even when things go to shit.
9.I want Sarah to know that I love her, and that my love will never change..die...never. I tell her every single day, that in case that I should seize to exist that she will know.
10.To cry more often, show more emotion.
11. Try not to whine.
12.Do more art, express myself. I love to write. I love to draw, I love art.
13. To take part in more things during the summer such as: day camp, school, picnics.
14.My list might go on forever, but right now it focus' on studying for the ACT s I need to more. than just math.
Thank you for listening,
skye
MY GOALS FOR 2007
1. Go to school, renew my education. Teach myself that I can actually do something with my life.
2. To make my home, feel more like home.
3. To not live pay check to pay check, to be able to save money and not have my mother pay my phone bill because I am to broke to do so. To not have my wonderful lover, not have to pay my share of the rent, because I cannot do so. ( typically in these sorts of situations I feel that I am screwed and am afraid and try to off myself. But I believe I have more faith than that. I am thankful, for her help. But I feel extremely guilty, because I should be able to pay my own rent. But Something is wrong with my body and I was not able to work for almost two weeks. Therefore this time off has given me a few things to think about, to do something about it.)
4.To take better care of myself.
5.To find a job that will take me somewhere. An internship.
6.To keep my bedroom clean for more than two days.
7.To grow up...
8.To keep strong, even when things go to shit.
9.I want Sarah to know that I love her, and that my love will never change..die...never. I tell her every single day, that in case that I should seize to exist that she will know.
10.To cry more often, show more emotion.
11. Try not to whine.
12.Do more art, express myself. I love to write. I love to draw, I love art.
13. To take part in more things during the summer such as: day camp, school, picnics.
14.My list might go on forever, but right now it focus' on studying for the ACT s I need to more. than just math.
Thank you for listening,
skye