*Shmee~
Alright, so today, I took out my bee's wax [with pomogranate oil :D] to use it. Shari grabbed it and said something along the lines of how she had one or blah blah [two different types, same brand]. Isaac took it from her and said "hey, these taste good." At first I didn't take him seriously. That is, until he bit into it. And everyone was saying about how that was indirectly me kissing his teeth [wtf?]. I just thought it was weird that he actually took a bite out of it. I had to scrape off the area he had bitten into. x.X
Random stuff that could've changed my life forever. Mostly stuff I wish I did and/or only don't wish I did because a big part of my life wouldn't be there otherwise.
If you're not into reminiscing and spilled guts, don't read.
In elementary school, I was in an after school singing thing [not choir]. I liked singing, and still do, but the songs they gave us were like stuff about the 1800s and parodies of theme songs. In other words, lame attempts to get kids to learn through song. [We were called the Music Maniacs and had our own theme song, parodied from Animaniacs theme song]. I kinda wished I've stuck with that, or at least taken voice lessons elsewhere. Like I said, I like singing.
Also, I've always had a good memory. In 5th and 6th grade, I went to a private school where each class would put on plays. I always tried out for roles with less than 5 lines because I was afraid I'd mess up. And then, I'd end up memorising most if not all of the play anyway. Oh, actually, I did try out for a semi-lead once. However, when we were asked for which roles, everyone [including myself] said whatever role they most wanted, and added "or any other [fe/male] role." One girl just said the one role [that I wanted] and for her it was either that or nothing [meaning background]. And of course she got the role. She was the type who'd whine if she didn't get the role she wanted. >.<
I wish I'd stayed away from the guys at the tree in Freshmen year. Or at least not let myself be a target. And maybe me having to be agressive on an almost daily basis to those guys has lead me to my constantly hitting Isaac and I'm trying to cut down on it. >.< I kinda had to keep them in line, ya know? Not that it worked very well. I was foolish and stupid and naive, and it took me until we learned about sexual harassment in Law for me to figure that commenting on a girl's chest and throwing wrappers down her shirt were just that. And the worst part is, there are three guys I can't even look at anymore without a flashback to that, and I now utterly despise them.
I wish I wasn't generally so naive and stupid and annoying and foolish. I wish I wasn't always getting my hoped up only to be disappointed. I wish I was a better person, especially to my brother. I wish I wasn't such a hypocrite and chronic/pathological liar. I wish I was more trusted and more trusting in the right places and less trusting in the wrong ones. I wish I wasn't afraid of everything. I wish I could understand myself and what I feel and believe.
Now that I've got that off my chest [specially the last two bits].
Oh, I love 6th period Rivera. Our class is so much fun. Yesterday she slipped up on a word and said "Uh-oh, I made a booby." [instead of boo-boo]
Today we went to the lobster shack place for dinner. They were playing She Will Be Loved, a song I'm totally in love with. But I'm glad they didn't play any other Maroon 5 song, because that woulda been awkward. [just read the lyrics and you'll know what I mean]
Oh, and during dinner, my mom was randomly like "Hey, you have Junir Prom this year, right?" and I proceeded to tell her that yes we did, but I didn't think it was worth hundreds of dollars to buy a dress I'd only wear once to go and listen to music I don't like. Then my brother chimed in with "Why? You can go with Isaac .." Of course, in my mind, the response was 'OMGasjflasd!?', but I managed to pull "Huh?". And my brother replied with "Well, you're friends, right?" Sigh. He doesn't get that generally, if a girl goes with a guy, it's her boyfriend. But seriously, this is the 13-year-old who shields his eyes when people kiss on tv and generally acts like he's 9. I just wonder, of all people, why did he pick Isaac? Aieee ... >.
Random stuff that could've changed my life forever. Mostly stuff I wish I did and/or only don't wish I did because a big part of my life wouldn't be there otherwise.
If you're not into reminiscing and spilled guts, don't read.
In elementary school, I was in an after school singing thing [not choir]. I liked singing, and still do, but the songs they gave us were like stuff about the 1800s and parodies of theme songs. In other words, lame attempts to get kids to learn through song. [We were called the Music Maniacs and had our own theme song, parodied from Animaniacs theme song]. I kinda wished I've stuck with that, or at least taken voice lessons elsewhere. Like I said, I like singing.
Also, I've always had a good memory. In 5th and 6th grade, I went to a private school where each class would put on plays. I always tried out for roles with less than 5 lines because I was afraid I'd mess up. And then, I'd end up memorising most if not all of the play anyway. Oh, actually, I did try out for a semi-lead once. However, when we were asked for which roles, everyone [including myself] said whatever role they most wanted, and added "or any other [fe/male] role." One girl just said the one role [that I wanted] and for her it was either that or nothing [meaning background]. And of course she got the role. She was the type who'd whine if she didn't get the role she wanted. >.<
I wish I'd stayed away from the guys at the tree in Freshmen year. Or at least not let myself be a target. And maybe me having to be agressive on an almost daily basis to those guys has lead me to my constantly hitting Isaac and I'm trying to cut down on it. >.< I kinda had to keep them in line, ya know? Not that it worked very well. I was foolish and stupid and naive, and it took me until we learned about sexual harassment in Law for me to figure that commenting on a girl's chest and throwing wrappers down her shirt were just that. And the worst part is, there are three guys I can't even look at anymore without a flashback to that, and I now utterly despise them.
I wish I wasn't generally so naive and stupid and annoying and foolish. I wish I wasn't always getting my hoped up only to be disappointed. I wish I was a better person, especially to my brother. I wish I wasn't such a hypocrite and chronic/pathological liar. I wish I was more trusted and more trusting in the right places and less trusting in the wrong ones. I wish I wasn't afraid of everything. I wish I could understand myself and what I feel and believe.
Now that I've got that off my chest [specially the last two bits].
Oh, I love 6th period Rivera. Our class is so much fun. Yesterday she slipped up on a word and said "Uh-oh, I made a booby." [instead of boo-boo]
Today we went to the lobster shack place for dinner. They were playing She Will Be Loved, a song I'm totally in love with. But I'm glad they didn't play any other Maroon 5 song, because that woulda been awkward. [just read the lyrics and you'll know what I mean]
Oh, and during dinner, my mom was randomly like "Hey, you have Junir Prom this year, right?" and I proceeded to tell her that yes we did, but I didn't think it was worth hundreds of dollars to buy a dress I'd only wear once to go and listen to music I don't like. Then my brother chimed in with "Why? You can go with Isaac .." Of course, in my mind, the response was 'OMGasjflasd!?', but I managed to pull "Huh?". And my brother replied with "Well, you're friends, right?" Sigh. He doesn't get that generally, if a girl goes with a guy, it's her boyfriend. But seriously, this is the 13-year-old who shields his eyes when people kiss on tv and generally acts like he's 9. I just wonder, of all people, why did he pick Isaac? Aieee ... >.