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I editted it a bit.
This isn't going to work out, for many reasons. The most important aspect of a relationship for me is not affection but conversation. Unfortunately I cannot get that from what we have & because we've had such different lives I don't know if I can get it in the future, even if we do learn each others languages. I still care for you very much and please don't be hurt that this hasn't worked out the way you've wished. I'm not right for you. I think and worry too much while you have worried enough in your life. We both want different things from a relationship because of who we are, the age difference and our backgrounds. I don't want to wait and end this later. I know that you're ready to settle down and be with someone because you've been alone for so long, but I'm not at that point in my life. If I wait I think you will be more hurt and knowing what I do now about how it will end, I cannot let myself continue it without feeling guilty. Thank you for the love and incredible happiness that you've given me during our time together and I wish you only the best in your life. I will still see you in Taksim at Karinca and so on, but just know that we have to move on emotionally from each other and just be friends. You will always hold a place in my heart but please don't be jealous if you see me being affectionate with someone else. Just know that affection is the only part of a relationship that I can get with this group of people because of the language barrier and it’s not fair to use someone for that when they care about me as much as you do. I can’t care about someone as much as you care about me without the other parts of a relationship that I can’t get with you. Please don't give up on learning English either, as I won't with Turkish. I still want your friendship and to be able to speak with you.
<3Mary
There are other reasons for it despite those that I'm actually telling him of course. Things I don't quite feel like explaining...they're not personal or anything, it's just...I don't feel like it.
Cool. 2 & a half weeks. And he thought it would be at least 2 years. Hah. Sucks.
This isn't going to work out, for many reasons. The most important aspect of a relationship for me is not affection but conversation. Unfortunately I cannot get that from what we have & because we've had such different lives I don't know if I can get it in the future, even if we do learn each others languages. I still care for you very much and please don't be hurt that this hasn't worked out the way you've wished. I'm not right for you. I think and worry too much while you have worried enough in your life. We both want different things from a relationship because of who we are, the age difference and our backgrounds. I don't want to wait and end this later. I know that you're ready to settle down and be with someone because you've been alone for so long, but I'm not at that point in my life. If I wait I think you will be more hurt and knowing what I do now about how it will end, I cannot let myself continue it without feeling guilty. Thank you for the love and incredible happiness that you've given me during our time together and I wish you only the best in your life. I will still see you in Taksim at Karinca and so on, but just know that we have to move on emotionally from each other and just be friends. You will always hold a place in my heart but please don't be jealous if you see me being affectionate with someone else. Just know that affection is the only part of a relationship that I can get with this group of people because of the language barrier and it’s not fair to use someone for that when they care about me as much as you do. I can’t care about someone as much as you care about me without the other parts of a relationship that I can’t get with you. Please don't give up on learning English either, as I won't with Turkish. I still want your friendship and to be able to speak with you.
<3Mary
There are other reasons for it despite those that I'm actually telling him of course. Things I don't quite feel like explaining...they're not personal or anything, it's just...I don't feel like it.
Cool. 2 & a half weeks. And he thought it would be at least 2 years. Hah. Sucks.